teruja :D

rupenye ramai gile mmbe2 dpt shah alam jgk..hahahaha.sumpah makin excited nk pegi sane..tumpang mmbe yg tersyg.hee.thanks mmbe dear.sebaik ade dia.kalau x mmpos nk naik sane xtau cane..smoge perjalanan kami selamat..amin.

papepun kene setelkan semua kt sini dulu..baru bleh tglkn jb..melaka dah pun aku tglkn kesemuanya..haha.sorry guys.tpakse tglkn korg, tp aku xkn pnh lupekn korg..besties aku yg sntiase support aku, syg aku..even kite x smpt nk lg rpt, tp aku ttp akn igt korg..

slain dr korg, dah pun aku buang,sgalenye.skrg neutral.hahaha.legaaaa.best mcm ni.xde beban kt kpale.kalau x, semak sial.madang aku je.hehehe.

yg dkt shah alam pulak, korg tgu aku k.jgn plak korg dah lupe aku.haha.hopefully not. :)

good news :)

yuran dah pun dibayar, alhamdulillah :)
slow2 lah kmpul duit lg utk yg lain2 pulak.xsabar beb nk naik sane.hehehe.
excited gile nk jmpe kwn2 lama.ramaaaaiiiiinnnyyyyeeeeee aku nk ajak lpk..haha.mcm ade duit je.
xpelah.jmpe pon jadi lah.cepat la mase berjalannnnnnn....

*p/s = congrats syifak.jage elok2 awak punye blog ni k.jgn yg bukan2.hee :)

congrats :)

tahniah kepada pami dan ayie yg telah pun selamat menghalalkn hubungan mereka. hahaha.kelaka lah. 1st time jd photographer.jd mcm bodoh je. xpela kn. pami pon ok je. bukan aku cas pape pon. hehe.gmbr nk upload mls gle lah. g tgk kt ana punye album kt fb k. anna aziz : kakak kesayangan. dia da mcm mak andam dah tlg pose2 kan pengantin. abis mak andam pentol nk mampos. bengang gile aku.haihh.

yg penting sume ok. lps ni nk pegi print2 gmbr pami then edit then cuci. setel! :)

excited :D

excited gila nk pergi tmpt baru :DDD xtau kenapa.hahaha.x sbr nk jmpe kwn2 lama. abg2 senior. hee.
tapiiiiiiiiiii
masalah besar la sial.
ni dia masalahnye.

motor : RM 300
nk bwk motor pegi shah alam : RM 200++
duit rumah sewa baru : RM 500 ++
yuran pengajian : RM 700++
perbelanjaan nk masuk sem : RM 200 ++
perbelanjaan buku2 : RM unknown 

so total up nk dkt RM2000 jgk la kn. tp yg ade skrg?hahaha
satu sen xde.berangan jela.elakkan x g smbg blaja je aku ni.hmm.
tp, usehe tangge kejayaan kn?so aku berusehe lah sehabis mungkin.
doakan la aku dpt smbg ni k sape2 pon.
amin.

speechless

kenapa?dah terang2 bnde ni terjadi.aku x dpt ape yg aku nak.damn!camane ni?boleh ke aku nk hidup kt sane?boleh ke aku nk mengadap nnt?boleh ke?haihhh.aku xtau la.

tapi, semua bnde terjadi mst ade sebab. dan semua mesti ade hikmahnye. aku menguatkan dri. aku mentabahkan dri. aku menghadapi. dengan senyuman wpon terpaksa. aku redha.

ibu, ayah, ana, ali, ika, kwn2 semua, tolong support aku. aku perlukan sgt2. tolong.
ya allah, berikan aku kekuatan. amin.

apa apa pun, aku akan tetap pndg kehadapan. dunia baru, hidup baru, harapan baru. :')
selamat tinggal yg lepas. semoga kita berjumpa lagi.

kehidupan

kenapa?kite selalu dlm keadaan x sedar.
ape yg kite x sedar.kite sering slh anggap, slh tafsir.kdg2, kite ditimpa kesusahan, then kita ckp "apela dugaan, ujian yg dtg kt aku ni". sedangkan tu semua balasan kt kite atas dosa2 kite yg lepas. ade juga org yg menanggap ujian yg ditimpanya balasan. tp bila difikir2kan balik, siapa aku utk menetukan yg mana balasan, yg mana ujian?yg aku boleh buat, adalah, meneka.berdasarkan ape yg aku boleh fikirkan.aku teka.slh ke betul, tuhan saje yg tahu.

kenapa?kite selalu dlm keadaan x bersyukur.
kite, selalu x ckup dgn ape yg kite dpt.bak kata pepatah, diberi betis, nk peha.haha.betul kn?ntahla.yg pntg point die, kite dah dpt, bnde dah dpn mate, da ckup baik dah, tp, kite nk lagi yg lain, yg lagi ini, lagi itu.seolah2 kite tamak.tapi tamak dlm xsedar.cukup baik tuhan bagi kt kite ape yg kite dpt tu.lg satu, dlm hidup ni, kite x semestinya dpt ape yg kite nk.mungkin kdg2 kite dpt, tp x mungkin setiap kali. so, kalau dah dpt tu, bersyukur jelah.

jawapanya, kerana, kita manusia.

kedua dua situasi ni aku sering hadapi dlm hidup aku. bkn aku kate org yg mcm tu. aku kate diri aku sndri. aku sndri yg mcm tu. smpai bila apit? perangai awak tu patot diubah. awak patot berubah apit.
dari itu, aku cube berfikir betul2 dgn ape yg aku dah buat.dosa2 aku.kesalahan aku.fikirkan kenapa aku ditimpa kesusahan. dr pndgn aku, kebanyakannya adalah disebabkan perbuatan aku sndri.sng ckp, tu semua balasan. bak kate org, 'byr cash'. haha.takpe. aku menabahkan diri, menghadapi. dan aku mula mencuba utk bersyukur dgn ape saje tuhan berikan aku. keputusan aku sebegitu?nk buat mcm mane. aku jgk yg bodoh, belajar x betul. tp aku terima. walaupun dgn hati yg x senang. tp tu lah balasannya.

sekarang, ape yg bermain di fikiran aku ialah masa hadapan.  aku dah xnk tgk ke belakang lagi. dah xde ape dah kt situ. ke depan, mcm2 menunggu aku kt sane. aku sgt teruja. dgn ape yg aku ade skrg, aku bahagia. sgt2. keluarga, sahabat2, kwn2 rpt. semua tu dah ckup dah. aku bersyukur. alhamdulillah :)

Pangkor Island

awesomeeeeee!
hahaha. my description for pangkor.act xdelah best mane.bosan gak ah.yg buatkn best sbb budak2 yg lain.seronok gile lpk ngan dorg.masuk2 bilik da jd bnde bodoh.ghahahaha!katil pth eh!bodoh la sial..bengang je koke ngan basa.lek r.pastu dpt bilik baru.gile cool satu blik 2 org je.org lain sume 1 blik 4 org.hahaha.thanks baganag(urusetia la knon2 nye).
aktiviti yg dijalani:
melawat2 sane sni.tgk org buat ikan masin.sumpah horror tgk makcik yg buat ikan masin tu.patu ptg bosan gile, budak2 sume lari g snorkling.padahal diharamkn masuk dlm air.jap lg kantoi dgn HEP!kelakar la sial.pastu kene denda xleh mandi kt pantai.budak2 yg x g snorkling boleh mnd.ape ape je HEP ni.
mlm last mlm plg best skali.lepak ngan budak2.tido kol 5.lepak main kad, gossip2.hahaha.nad la tmn aku.thanks nad.n thanks for your ears. :)
balik dr pangkor letih gile, sakit kpale.haha.kne ujan gaknye.btw, sori x smpt anta batt kau.
haihhh.i'm gonna miss all of you.seriously.baru nk rapat ngan korg semua.hmmm.nnt lepak lagi lah okay? :)

KISAH AKU DAN DIA

Chapter 5 : The Final Chapter

dalam kebahagiaan tu, aku sedar yg semakin lama, aku dan dia semakin jauh.masa berlalu.hati aku dah mula meracau time tu.x sdp hati.aku tgk dia dah kurang syg aku.aku sedar bnde tu.kenapa?mungkin ke sbb kau dah jmpe kwn2 kau?mungkin sbb kau dah bosan dgn aku?atau mungkin sbb aku yg dah x thn.dan aku mula berhenti berusaha?sbb tu ke?tu semua aku x sedar dah.bnyk yg dia buat kat aku, aku telan.sbb aku syg dia.tp, pntg aku buat slh, hm.ade org ckp aku bdoh, aku pon xtau la.even baru 3 bulan kite berkwn, aku rasa mcm2 kita dah lalui bersama.macam macam.tu yg develop syg aku kt kau.serious aku ckp, aku da ready utk jd kn kau psgn hidup aku.aku dah terima baik buruk kau semua.aku x kisah.aku pndg ke depan.yg lepas aku dah x peduli dah.

tapi, yg skrg mcm mana pulak?yg kau buat.yg aku nak.yg kau nk.yg aku buat.semua tu.aku jujur ckp yg keinginan aku x semua tercapai.aku terbatas.aku x jadi diri aku sndri, 100%.tp itu usaha aku utk jaga relation ni.tu pengorbanan aku.biarlah ape org nk ckp skali pon.aku x heran.

tp aku cuma manusia.semuanya bertahap.hari2 akhir aku dgn kau, kau langsung x cari aku, x care psl aku.sedih.aku tgh exam.tp aku bertahan jgk.dgn adenye kwn2 aku.aku amik keputusan utk bertindak.dan tindakan aku, mnyebabkan respon kau yg sebegitu.

dan akhirnya, aku give up.tahap aku dah tercapai.aku amik keputusan utk pergi.pergi dari kau.sbb kau x perlukan aku lg.kau bahagia xde aku.kau lg selesa xde aku.so, utk ape aku kt situ lagi?ade yg ckp aku deserve better.ye ke?bg aku, ni balasan utk aku.sebab bnde2 bdoh aku yg dulu.aku pnh ckp sblum ni pegangan aku, karma.dan bnde tu terkene kt aku sndri.bodoh kau ni pit.aku da wat yg terbaik utk kau.tp aku punye terbaik x ckup utk dptkn kau punye terbaik.

di situ, berakhirlah relation kita.berakhirlah segalanya.berakhirlah aku punye 'everything'.slh aku jgk.sape suruh all out.sape soh jadikan dia aku pnye segalanye.sbb bila dia pergi, aku dah xde apa2.

tp hari berlalu, dan aku semakin pulih.masa mmg akn mnyembuh kan.cuma sebanyak mana masa yg kita perlukn je.kau da pon move on.and skrg, turn aku plak.

itulah dia, kisah aku dan dia.
dan ia berakhir disini.

end of the final chapter 

 seikhlasnya, Afiq Aziz

KISAH AKU DAN DIA

Chapter 4 : Di Alam Percintaan

akhirnya, kitorang pon officially in a relationship!hahaha.happy nye aku time tu.seronok.suka.hahaha.mcm2 aku rasa.xterkata.dia baik sgt.aku ade mslh, dia nasihat, kalau dia boleh tlg, dia tlg.aku suka gile.dan makin lama, aku semakin syg kt dia.aku pon xtau nape.xleh thn, kitorg celebrate kitorg pnye seminggu cple.hahaha!7?kaw2.

aku nmpk yg makin lame, dia pon makin syg kt aku.dia berjnj nk berubah satu hari nnt.aku pgg kt kate2 dia tu.aku skit demi dkit berubah.utk dia.ape dia x suke semua aku buang.aku try sehabis baik.semata2 utk jaga relationship ni.sbb aku sygkn dia.sgt2.dan aku yakin time tu yg dia lah aku punye jodoh.

tibe2, masalah besar menimpa.haihhhhh.time tu kitorang tabah hadap same2.sbb same2 punce kn.so, kitorang chill je.nasib aku baik sbb dia phm aku dlm situasi tu.dia ikutkan aku.sorry.kesian awak jd mangsa.awak x bersalah pon.sorry skali lg.tp, kite slow2 cari jln penyelesaian.dan smapi satu mase, kite setelkan jgk.lega.even time tu kau sakit, tp aku nmpk yg kau syg aku sgt3 time tu.aku xtau nape.tibe2 kau kucup aku, tibe2 kau ckp kau syg aku.haha.bahagia gila aku time tu.serious shit aku happy dgn kau yg itu.

aku rase mcm xde mslh langsung je time tu.selagi kau ada dgn aku.time tu aku hadap mslh aku sndri, financial aku.tp kau ade.kau tlg aku.satu hari nnt aku ganti balik k,inshaAllah.aku xtau ape jd kt aku kalau kau xde time tu.terima kasih sgt2.budi kau akan aku balas.

chapter ni aku sgt bahagia.terjaga.dicinta.disayangi.oleh kau.

end of chapter 4

KISAH AKU DAN DIA

Chapter 3 : Cinta Berputik

kitorang knl2 sjk dr tu.knl pnye knl pnye knl, bnyk gle persamaan.haha.bnyj gile gile sgt sgt bnyk!n dari tu, aku rase she is the one.bnyk kali aku hintkan kt dia, aku ckp la kt dia aku da nk in a relation.tp bnyk kali dia ckp dia x ready, dia takot, mcm2.aku pon mcm x sdp la kn.so kitorang go on as friends dulu.kemane2 aku dgn dia je.dia mntk tlg aku tlg.aku mntk tmn dia tmn.kitorng da mcm belangkas dah.dan orgt pon semakin sedar aku dgn dia.aku x kisah pon, aku lg suka.haha.biar org tau, aku da serius nk kwn ngan dia.aku cuma risaukan dia je, takot jatuh market dia.tp dia ckp dia ok.haha.aku lg lah ok kalau dia ok.

aku da start kenalkn dia kt kwn2 aku.kt mana2 je kwn2 aku tu, aku knlkn jgk.sape2 jelah.haha.kitorang da mcm xleh dipisahkan.even dr time tu lg, kitorg da ade gadoh2.tp biasela, getting to know each other kn.aku berUSAHA utk menjayakan relationship aku ngan dia.smpaikn x tentu arah kalau gadoh.hee.bdoh je.

kitorang makin lama makin rapat.rapat gila lah.wpon sbnrnye time tu x declare pape lg.smapi satu kejadian tu.kitorang beli baju same!haha.sweet gile.balik dr jln2 tu, aku rase mcm nk pop the question.aku rase da smpai mase.aku rase sia boleh.aku boleh blah ngan dia.aku da ready.then, aku tnye dia.time tu txt je.dia marah!haha.dia ckp 'u xde effort syg'. sentap gak r time tu.tp btol gak, xkn txt je kn.aku pon call.ushar pnyr ushar last2 dia ckp dia nk.hahahahaha!sumpah happy gile aku time tu!mcm nk nangis doe!hee.pnye lah excited, aku call la kura n zaty.so, dorang lah yg tau dr mula aku kwn ngan awek tu.

nk tau tarikhnye?1hb august.haha.genap sebulan mntk num dia. :P 

end of chapter 3

KISAH AKU DAN DIA

Chapter 2 : Sesi Pengenalan 

penyambungan cerita, maka naiklah semester baru. aku dgn rasa rajinye jadilah pm.pembantu mesra.hahaha
xde keje an naik awal2 pegi jage budak baru nk dftr. xpelah. dpt duit, n weekend ni plak dpt g holiday. 
ceritanya bermula begini. hari pertama mggu MDS. pendaftaran ke kolej. jmpe la mak bpk budak ape sume. time tu da ptg dah. aku pon dah pnt. dok la kt kaunter kos aku. sblh tu pulak, OM. x aku sangke2 yg aku nmpk nk pegi ke kaunter OM tu, awek yg selama ni aku stalk.hahaha.bedebar2 jantung aku time tu. dia da lps dftr, aku pun bgn ikut dia slow2. dan2 buat keje. tgk dia mcm blur2 je, aku pon tegur la dia. aku ckp la nk kne g kolej ape sume. da tu, aku tnye 'fara kan?dlu keje gsc kn?pastu mbo kn?'.hahahaha.muka dia time tu blur abis, ngangguk je.jd aku x slh org la kn.haha.masuk uitm budak ni.mati2 mase aku nmpk dia dulu aku igt dia da besar da keje.damn!tertipu.

sejak dari tu, sepanjang minggu MDS, aku mencari2 lah dia.knon2 nk ushar2 lah kn.ade skali dia tetinggal brg kt kolej.dia mntk tlg.aku pon belgak mcm hero mntk mmbe aku hntrkn.hehe.tp dlm mggu tu susah tol aku nk jmpe dia.

smpai mase last day MDS.time tu mlm, tgh slm2 la ngan junior2 sume.aku ni, dok luar tu, tgu pnye tgu pnye tgu lah awek ni kuar.tp x kuar2.smpai bdk pempuan da abis da.frust gak time tu.aku igt dah telepas.jap lag ade 3 org pmpuan kuar lmbt, yg kiri ngan kanan aku nmpk muke, bkn dia.tp yg tgh asik terlindung je.grm aku.smpai dia kt tmpt aku, aku tgk rupenye dia!melompat aku dpn dia.hahaha.sbb nk mntk num.bodo la siot.lps dpt, menjerit2 aku melompat kt basa ckp dah dpt!hahahahaha!

start dr tu, kitorg knl2, text2 ape sume.yg buatkn aku lg suka kt dia ni, dia pnh skali txt aku 1st.aku rase mcm miracle time tu.excited gile.kirenye mcm x betepuk sblh tgn la.hahaha. 

aku igt lagi, 1hb july, time tu lah aku dpt num dia.hahaha.lps dr tu, aku start berjinak2. :P



end of chapter 2.

KISAH AKU DAN DIA

haih.belum tulis lg dah berkaca bijik mata aku ni.i'm gonna be strong on this one.okay, go!
mungkin ade yg dah tau kisah2 ni.tp bg yg xtau, bacelah. :)
 
Chapter 1 : Detik Pertemuan (stalking)
hahaha.chapter ni mungkin akan menampakkan aku seorang yg loser.kisah kami bermula begini.semasa aku di semester 5,  aku selalu pegi tgk wyg, gsc, ngan bestie ku, basa.dlm aku g tgk wyg tu, aku ternmpk ade awek ni sumpah comel gile babi!haha.tgk dr jauh je.dgn fringe die, mate sepet, comel je dok kt kaunter tu.aku ckp ngan basa, 'jom basa g kt kaunter dia, comel la sial awek tu'.then kite pon pegi.da tgh bli barang, aku tgk je awek tu.basa je yg beckp ngan dia.aku nmpk nametag dia tulis 'fara'.terus melekat kt paler otak aku name dia.hahaha.jap lg da nk blah basa boleh plak dajal aku.dia ckp kt awek tu, 'kwn sy ckp awak comel'.babi punye basa.aku ni pemalu.x reti ushar2 awek ni :P. then aku pon tros bleh tanpe mengatakan apa2.segan doe!then kite pon tros masuk hall.haha.

sejak dari itu, setiap kali aku g tgk wyg, aku akn cari awek yg bermata sepet, bernama fara.cari bkn nk ape pon.nk tgk je.comel gile mslhnye.suke ngadap.kdg2 bratur beli tiket, kalau boleh nk kt kaunter dia, tp x dpt.nk tegur x brani.tgk je lah.haha.u're such a loser apit.tu yg mcm stalker tu.hee.

mase baru abis final pulak, aku g tgk wyg kt mbo ngan cikbarb n bagang.tgk cite robinhood kalau x silap aku time tu.smpai2 kt kaunter, aku nmpk awek yg aku stalk dkt gsc.aku pon beranikan diri menegur dia.aku ckp 'fara kn?dulu keje gsc?'.dia pon dgn terpinga2 mengangguk.aku tnye lagi, 'mane pegi rambut lame?'. dia ckp x buat dah.hahaha.then aku blah.wpon cam bangang je tegur, bedebar2 gak ah!

and last part of my stalking, a few weeks lps tu.aku nmpk dia kt dataran.dia ngan mmbe2 dia.aku kemain excited lg nmpk dia.aku ckp ngan bagang, 'gang!awek kt mbo aritu doe!'hahaha.tp dr jauh je.
then cuti sem, balik ke jb.tp dia still aku igt.sbb hajat mcm x lepas.hahaha.


end of chapter 1

degil

kenapa kau xnk dgr ckp org?ape jgk la kau ni. org syg kau, nk jaga kau, kau buat org tu mcm ni?xphm la aku.kau jage lah diri kau tu baik2.kau ckp kau tau baik buruk, tp same je mcm xtau.cpt2la matangkn dri.demi kebaikan kau.

get a grip apit!

damnit apit!what has gotten into you?why are you this way?come on!keep moving.she has already moved on.why havent you?
hm.its because i love her so much.and from that we can know how much she loves me.or does she?hm.
the more i look at our pictures, her pictures, the more it makes me wanna cry.why?i miss her too much.i dont even know why.we've went thru so much together.many were shocked this thing happened.many said we were so sweet together.but no more.
so, i am trying my best.as i have tried my best with you, so i am going to try my best without you.
i know that you are doing just fine without me.like you said, you dont need me. but sadly, that only makes one of us. :|
please be with me friends.help me thru this.i need you guys.just as much as i need her.

dear Allah, give me strength.so i can move on.give me cure for this pain.and give me light so i wont be in the dark by showing me the way. Amin.

tears

it came.slowly.after i looked at a picture.collage actually.

what the fuck?as far as i know myself, i'm not like this.

damn it!this is big.gotta try harder apit.it's killing you.

this is the hardest part that i have to go thru.it hurts, seriously.

hm.

i miss you by,so so so much, :'(

syukur

petanda.

macam2 dah aku nmpk. macam2 dah Dia bg. tp aku je yg buat2 x nmpk. buat2 xphm. aku je yg xnk terima tu semua. bodoh kau ni pit. Dia dah ckup baik nk tnjuk semua tu kt kau, tp ko yg xnk terima. 

hmph.

xpelah. it is never too late. aku pegang kt bnde tu. so bg aku, belum terlmbt lagi. 

sekarang, aku terima semuanya. ape yg Dia tnjuk, ape yg ade kt dpn aku, dan ape yg aku boleh nmpk. 

TERIMA KASIH. 

semoga apa yg aku buat ni betul. semoga ape yg aku buat ni bkn mndtgkn keburukan lg kt aku. dan semoga cukuplah hukuman Kau kt aku. 

alhamdulillah. 

aku bersyukur kepadamu Ya Allah. 

it ends now

3 is the number. seems like its just a short time. but many things had happened. it was a part of my life. it was everything to me. but now, 

it ends. 

so long, farewell, goodbye. 

ape tu title dia? 


 hmm...?


 ape ek?


 haa.da tau dah!

KOSONG

sausages!

asik kau je kn. sahur kau. buka kau. sarapan kau. mkn tengah hari kau. haihh. nasib baik kau sedap! 

hahahahaha

kenapa?bagaimana?sampai bila?

tuhan saja yang tahu.

couldn't you at least?

tak boleh kah sekurang2nya dikau berlembut dengan ku ketika ku dimarahkan?
tak boleh kah sekurang2nya dikau berlebihkurang dengan perbuatan2ku yg tidak kau senangkan?
tak boleh kah sekurang2nya dikau melayanku dengan sedikit lagi kebaikan?
tak boleh kah sekurang2nya dikau menyayangiku dengan sedikit penambahan?
tak boleh kah sekurang2nya dikau mengambil kira perbuatan2ku untukmu setelah apa yang kulakukan?
atau sekurang2nya, tak boleh kah sekurang2nya dikau cuba untuk menjadi lebih adil dalam kehidupan?

terus terang, manusia sentiasa mengharapkan balasan.dalam apa jua keadaan sekali pun balasan itu.dengan sebanyak mana keikhlasan yang ditaruhkan.harapan untuk balasan sentiasa akan ada.tak kisahlah balasan itu dlm apa jua bentuk sekalipun.kerana tuhan maha pemurah.dan Dia akan membalas dengan pelbagai cara.bersabarlah.
dan sesungguhnya aku, hanyalah manusia, biasa.

what i'm gonna miss about my baby.

i) her touch
-when she holds my hand when we are walking. when she touches my face while we're sitting. and when she touches my hair when we're doing nothing.
ii) her smell 
-the smell of her hand when we kiss each other hands to say goodbye. the smell of her cheeks. the smell of her hair. the smell of her forehead. and definitely the smell of her ____. :p
iii) her kiss
-when she kisses me on my hand, my cheeks, my forehead and my _____ when we say goodbye. when she kisses me anywhere. sorry but cant tell the details. haha
iv) her breath
-her breath when she is sitting close to me. especially when we're watching a movie. and when she intentionally breathes in my ear for whatever purpose.
v) her looks
-when she looks at me when i'm doing something. when i call her. when i did something wrong (her angry looks). when i'm going off in my car and she'll wait until i go. and of course her looks when we're doing something together.
vi) her everything
-this point concludes all. it means anything that is related to her. what i really2 gonna miss of her is her herself. my baby wifey. siti farazeeqa rasid. cant imagine this coming times. days without u with me, scolding me if i did anything wrong, asking me to do what i have to do, eating together, sitting together, walking together, studying together, online-ing together, and most of all, breathing together. *sigh
we're gonna make it through okay baby?together.i cant make it alone. i need u to be by my side. u dont have to worry about me. coz i'll always be by your's. :)

<3

super sweet!

aaawwwwwww.....
thankyou sayanggg..that was super sweet..seriously..i super duper like!i igt nk buat smlm td. tp u dah buat dulu. haha. loser i ni.
haihh. i tau kte x biase bejauhan. tp kte kne blajar k by. slowly. as long as kite igt kt masing2, sayang kt masing2, inshaAllah kite ok. i'm really2 going to miss you sayang. hope u're gonna be there everytime i need you. kesian tgk u td. sedih tgk u sedih. kalau bleh xmo la nangis sgt k by. tp tu tndenye bagus. at least i know that u're gonna miss me too when i'm not with u. :')
dont u ever forget me okay baby. coz i definitely wont.

the story behind my fishies!

if u can notice at this blog, scroll down, u can see my fishies. there is seven of them rite?

two whites, two blacks, two reds, and one yellow. so, what does that mean?

the two whites are faris and zaty, the two blacks are mia and don, and the two reds are supposedly to be gepet and illy. but.... its okay bro, the important thing is the red one is you and the other is i dunno who. be strong bro. these three couple means a lot to me. i love them. and i love seeing them with each other. therefore, i'm trusting them with the yellow fish, my goldie goldfish, the love of my life, my wife. i love those three couple and i know they can look after my baby. its because i'm leaving, it's my final semester here. when i'm gone, take good care of my baby for me okay guys? 

i owe you guys big time. love all of you. :)

p/s = the yellow fish is you siti farazeeeqa rasid. :)

my belief :)

in my life, i have three main principles.

the first one is, KARMA. many would know what karma is. for those who dont, its a situation where what goes around, comes around. it means what u're giving, u would only get back. that is why i try my best to give only the best to all. especially my loved ones. hoping that the same would be done to me. but i'm still not perfect. sometimes i still do bad things. so, i'll get the punishment.

secondly, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. for this, i believe in Allah's almighty power. when anything that happens to us, it must be because of something. there must be something to it. either good or bad. sometimes, bad things happen because we are being punished.but sometimes, it is only because you are being tested. it is to see whether you are strong enough or not.and how you faces it. EVERYTHING that happens has a reason, that is why i believe in FATE, instead of COINCIDENCE. therefore, when something happens to you, find the reason why. that is what living is for, to search. because thats what i would do. and it makes me think. and thinking is good for you.

lastly, i believe in YIN and YANG. in my understanding, yin yang means that in everything, there is always both good, and bad. to me, it applies to everything. example, things, persons, action, etc. yin is the dark, bad, negativity. yang is the light, good, positivity. when a person is looked from the outside as a bad person, there is always good in them. and when a person looks good from the outside, they will also have a bad side in them. there is a reason to that. and it is the balance of nature. the yin and yang needs each other. to be balanced. so, everyone has good and bad in them.

for more than 20 years i've lived in this world, this is the three principles of my life. as i get more mature in growing up, i learnt these. at school, home, anywhere. based on my experience, what i have been facing. i guess i have enough evidence to prove all these. 

and of course, in living my life, i will always hold on to these principles in my future. :)

oh oh oh! i almost forgot. if u noticed, all three is so much related with fairness. soooooo, try to be fair in your life okay? ;)

kenapa?

u asked why?
such a stupid question sayang. its because i love you of course. haihh. i need you. thats it. no other reason.
leaving is not a solution.
another thing, i'm holding on to your words. thats another reason.
ty for loving me.

dont ____ too much

people say :
dont eat too much, or you'll get fat
dont study too much, or you'll get stressed
dont sleep too much, or you'll waste ur lifetime
dont play too much, or you'll get distracted from important things
dont kid around too much, or people will not take you seriously
dont be serious too much, or people will be afraid of you
dont be soft too much, or people will not be afraid of you
dont hate too much, or you'll be hated
dont love too much, or you'll find it hard too lose her@him
easier said, dont do things too much, i mean excessively.coz it'll only bring things that you dont need, want.


for me,
i say :
dont hope too much, or it'll hurt you.

:(

dakaplah
nothing i can do about it
this is just a lover's sigh
jealousy, normal
not a big deal
but it did hurt
a lot
:(
*sigh

alhamdulillah

so, x sia2 aku mengharap.harapan tu lah segalanya.x pnh jd kesalahan kalau kita mengharap.selagi ade harapan, selagi kita bleh go on.

to me, we both are to be blamed.each of us played our part, and we there was just a little part that we had wrong.thats normal.ppl call it ups and downs. 

from that, we learn.if we didnt made that mistake, we wont learn right?the best teacher in life is of course experience. 

and nowww, we're back on track.i'm feeling a bit different this time.it's like the feeling is better, happier.hurm.

and above all, thankyou sayang.thankyou so much.i love you.

haaaaaaaa....tu dia selipar kita kan by...heee..thankyou tauuu... muah!

thankyou so3 much!

u ckp u xtau nk beli apa utk kite pnye 3rd?haihh.
mcm2 u dah bg tauuu takkk.thanks for the shirt.it was cute.sebaik ngam2 je size.hehehe.next, thanks for the kentang tornado ke pejadah tu.hee.i suka bnde tu even susah nk mkn.next, thnks for the movie.movie pon bessst.next, thnks for the dinner.lamaa x mkn dble cheeseburger.next, thnaks for gadek n sentalkan daki.hehehe.sian u.next, thanks for the flippers!awww.kaler samee..commeeellll....!!!nnt pkai sama k..lagi kalau nk sebut satu2 bnyk sgt u..mcm2 u bg..
i plak?hnye mampu bg bunga n coklat je.hm.loser.haihh.sian u kn.hope u x kesah. :l

is there still?

it seems like it,hurm :')
high hopes afiq, high hopes.

hope

harapan
slah satunye bnde yg mmbantu kite meneruskan hidup.tanpa harapn, xtau la ape jd kt kite.aku still bepegang kt bnde tu.harapan.
kau ckp aku boleh jd lagi teruk, aku rase tu dah limit aku dah.xkn lagi teruk punye.sbb aku ni berfikir lagi.aku x bdoh mcm tu skali.aku syg kau.x pnh rase mcm tu.mase tu aku still tekejot dgn keputusan kau tu.mana x aku wat yg bkn2.so skg aku dah blajar silap aku yg aku x pnh buat.
so, dgn tu, harapan timbul.harapan utk kau maafkan aku bg aku peluang kedua.tu sekurang2mya.
mcm mane skali pon, aku akan sntiase mengharap.sbb apa, sbb aku akan sntiase sayangkan kau.

happy 3rd monthlysary baby.

hmm.three.one of my favourite num.xsangke.mcm ni kita celebrate kte pnye 3rd month.hadiah i bg u pon u x amik.sedihnye.

fara, i tau i slh td.i tau i bodoh, bangang, semua lah.tp please forgive me.i bleh trima alasan u.tp please, kalau boleh wat la ape yg i mntk kt u tu fara.kalau x, boleh gila i gaknye.tolong sgt.i need u.i need u so much.i need u to be there when i need u.thats all.i know it may be difficult, but try.please try.i menyesal buat ape yg i buat td.sumpah.n i ni bkn jenis yg senang2 je nk menyesal.tp kali ni i btol2 regret it.tp menyesal pon x guna.bnde dah jadi.

i wish that it souldnt end, i wish that u wouldnt go, n i wish that u'll stll be with me.amin.

i will still love and love you.

it's over.

x sangke.bdoh jgk aku.diperbodohkan.haha.nk wat cane kn.skg aku salah satu mangsa ko plak.tp apa2 pun.thanks sgt2 sbb jage aku, thnks utk kenangan yg ko dah bg.aku happy ngan kau.sgt3.tp kau?hm.so, aku mntk maaf sgt2 sbb x ckup utk ko.i've tried my best, i've put my best effort.but still.hbu?did u?haha.its not wrong to hope for the impossible kn. xpelah. aku x penah dan x akan menyesal pon dgn pnh menerima ko. i've considered u as my wife. and always will be. whatever it is, i still love you Siti Farazeeqa. 

take care and goodbye.

sorry baby :')

aaaaawwwwwww...

tu dia si comel yg wat i rasa happy hidup skg ni..

i really mean it syg..

i'm happy with you..seriously..

i dont think i want anyone else..

i want you and only you..

 mana x ramai org tertarik ngan you. smpaikan i blom blah lagi u dah ade org nk ganti tmpt i..sedih owh camtu..hmm :(

u baik, u comel, u pndai jage i, u slalu mara i kalau prangai i tu x btol, u slalu sruh i mkn sbb xnk i lapar, u layankan i dgn jajan2 bdoh i sume tu, u teman i lama2 study kt lib even if u xde paper(sian u boring).

u watkan i rase sgt terjage, sgt disayangi. and i love it bila tiba2 je u kiss, pegang, usap i..mcm, OMG!seronookkknyyeee!hahaha..and bila u pgl i syg.aawww.comel je.hehehe

tapi...hmmm...

tgk lah i ni.ape yg i ade?rupa?xde.prangai?mcm budak2.gedik.harta?hampeh.duit pon xde.loser doe i ni.i takot sgt kalau u malu ngan i.bila u ckp u xnk bwk i jmpe kwn2 u.i takot sgt sbb u segan.tp u just xnk i keras je kn.thankyou syg.mcm2 i pk.pk kn you.i kalau boleh nk jadi terbaik utk you.ni tak, lagi i keje nyusahkn u je.haihh.kesian sgt kt you.i rasa bersalah sgt2 you.xterkata dah.xtau nk wat cane dah.tp i tgk you steady je.lg lah wat i syg kt you fara, wat kan i rasa yg u mmg btol2 nk jge i.hurm :') n dgn u, i bleh jadi dri i sndri.u tau la i cane kn.hee.

to me, u're very close to perfect.u make me really happy.dari ape yg i nmpk, u mcm btol2 nk hidup ngan i.i harap ape yg i rasa ni btol.sbb i xnk bertepuk sblh tgn. :)

thankyou so much for everything sayang.i love you so much..

*p/s : i bersyukur sgt ade u.i hope this is it.coz i dont want anyone else.you're mine tau.

plans

mcm awal sgt nk pk.mcm jauh lg.entahlah.

hmm.

i nak, bkn xnk.tp utk pk kn bnde tu skrg, hm.

nnt lah dulu kot.bg keutamaan kt yg pntg dulu.

u pon tau kn. 

n by, sorry lah by.sgt2 sorry.jgn la ckp camtu, lame, boring.

sedih owh. :( 

ohhh myyy goooddddd!!!

dunno where to start!
haihhh...
happppyyyyyy giiillllaaaaaaaaa!!!
hahahah.seronokkk.
spend time together kaw2 punye.sumpah best!

dunno what to say anymore by.i love you so much, and thats all there is.
i hope everything will go as we plan baby.
i know you understand.
for me, we have nothing to worry about.
we can't rush baby, we have to go slowly okay.
loving each other is strong enough to keep us going baby.
hurmmm... :')

goodbye, see you in heaven :')

sorry. bukan masanye. keadaan terpaksa. :'(
akhirnya, selesai. alhamdulillah.
hmmm. :l

heyeyeyeyey....

fuyyyooooo...

lama gile x update owh..hahaha..jarang online pkai lappy, bz, tu yg x update2 tu..

bnyk bnde nk cte..mcm2 jadi baru2 ni..xtau la nk ckp cane..hmm..pikiran sgt2..kt mcm2 bnde...boleh gile kalau pk sume skali gus..tu yg kalau bleh xnk pk sgt..

sedih sgt2 kt ape yg tejadi..xsangke..maybe bnde tu biase, sbb marah, sbb nympah, sbb mmg camtu, tp still sedih bile smpai kt hati..koyak derrr...hmm..

tp nk wat cane, aku jgk puncenye.slh aku jgk.sape sruh jadi org tu bdoh sgt.haaa.kan dahhhh.nyesal pon x guna.jadikan pengajaran jela k pit..

ade org smpai ckp aku ni lelaki yg steady, cool.hahaha.jimbit!nmpk kt luar je.kt dlm, tuhan saje yg tau cane sakitnye, sedihnye hat aku ni.meranaaaaaa.tapi, puncenya, aku jgk.salahkan diri sndri pit.sbb mmg slh sndri.hmm...

betul ke aku ni yg terlalu awal sgt?betul ke aku ni yg beriya sgt?betul ke aku ni over sgt?bukan apa.itu usaha aku.tp maybe cara aku slh.kene berubah pit.kene adapt.kalau x ape pon x jd.sume sia2 je.nk camtu?xnak dowwhhhh.

hidup kite ni perlu ade rancangan.tp tuhan je yg tentukan semua.yg penting, kite kne nmpk kn usaha kite utk jayakan rancangan kite tu.kalau x, cane tuhan nk bagi bnde tu bjaye?igt senang2 je nk bg camtu?

sayang, i tau i pnh wat slh besar kt u, mungkir janji.sjk dr tu i dah tarik balik janji2 i semua, n wat janji kt dri sndri.kali ni jnj yg mmg btul2 i bleh capai.sbb i xnk ulang silap i.i xnk wat u marah.i xnk sakitkan ati u.

sebabnya?

i sayang kat u.i syg u sgt3.stiap kali i cte2 kt kwn2 ke sape2, mesti dorg akan ckp bnde tu.'ko syg gile kt dia ek'.hahaha.memangla derr.xkanla x syg..apela dorang.

tp igt syg je ckup ke utk menjayakan rancangan i?kesetiaan, kejujuran, toleransi, lagi mcm2 lah kne wat.jgn wat u sakit hati, jgn wat u marah, jgn wat u rimas.kalau nk tulis satu2 ni, bila nk abis.tp yg pntg i tau apa i kene wat, n i akan cuba sehabis baik.kalau x maksudnye xde la usaha i kn.hurm :')

tp dgn tu sume pon, x semestinya rancangan tu akan berjaya.bnyk lagi kekangan.mcm2.dr mcm2 segi.xpe.i hadapi semua.selagi i mampu hadapi, i akan.utk apa?utk rancangan i berjaya.

yg pntg jgn jadi bodoh pit.tu je.jadi bdoh tu btol2 xleh diterima.jadi bdoh tu xkn kemana.jadi bdoh tu xde makna.

insyaallah, semua akan baik.amin. :)

p/s : hoping for the best.always will be waiting.

it's time :)

sayanggg...surprissseeee!!hehehe

sorry i didn't told you earlier..i curi2 letak dlm beg youuu... :P

i rasa da smpai masa utk bg you bnde tu..

sebab i happy sgt ngan youu..macam2 i rasa ngan you..i BAHAGIA..

even if you ckp u x jaga hati i, tapi i rasa yg u jaga, sedikit sebanyak..

i nmpk effort you..

u're different now..and i like it..it makes me love you more and more..

do take care of it, do nurture it, do love it..

just like how you do it to me..

i know its just a stupid plain rock, but it means everything to me..

and i want the person that means everything to me to have it..

and that person is YOU, Siti Farazeeqa :)

u know i love you kan sayang.hurmm :')

big one this time

haihh...my worst nightmare may come true..tp x sure lagi..tp kemungkinan besar iye..xtau nk ckp ape..i tau i jgk patot disalahkan dlm bnde ni..x beringat kan i..bodoh..da ade otak xnk pk pit..hmm..maki2 pon x guna..bnde da jadi..so, i harap kite bleh mnghdp mslh ni sama2..i bertanggungjawab..i xkan 'lari'..u jgn, risau okay sayangg..whatever happens, i'll always be by your side..i akan sntiase ade dgn u..i xkn kemane2..okay syg?hurm :')

u pnye steady, pnye cool, watkan i relax skit..i tau u xnk wat bnde tu, tp tpakse syg..i hope u phm..

i really really love you syg.seriously.dr ape yg i nmpk, bnde ni akan jadikan kte lagi syg kt each other..hopefully i betul..coz i cant be without u baby..hmm...

always pray that it would go away a.s.a.p..amin..

sedikit sebanyak cerita sepanjang syawal (bhgn 1)

hmmm..raya continues after da pressure gle mase 1st day..it was okay..ke sane ke sini jgk lah mase raya ke2..raya ke3 balik kmpung..mati2 ingatkn raya keempat tu nk ke melaka.rupenye xjadi.geram betul aku..x reti nk bgtau awal2..xpela..sebaik syggg trun jb awal..dpt la lps rndu skit..jmpe syg and then baru tau betapa rndunye kitaorang kt masing2..dpt jmpe kjp je tp esok nya dpt la g karok ngan sepupu2 sygg..hee..segan je..tp best..thankyou korang..pastu esoknya syg balik melaka..
braya2 smpai la hari jumaat..hari yg dinanti2kan sbb syg nk trun jb balik..sgt excited sbb syg nk stay umah mase open houseee...sorry x bgtau awal2 nk balik ahad..
openhouse bejalan lancar...rmai jgk la org dtg..org2 yg 'bertuah'..hahahaha..thnks for coming guys..sabtu g beraya lg..kali ni dgn syggg...besssttttt...hehehe...mlm tu ade la isu skit..sorry syg.i hope u phm..thankyou so much for doing what u did..i was fcking happy when u turned around that time.. :')
ahad pon tiba..masa utk kembali ke melaka..konvoi ngan mmbe2 skit..sebaik kete ok..x wat hal..syg awak 'knight'..hehehe..smpai melaka g beraya jap kt umah mama syg..hee..selekeh je beraya cmtu pkai nye..xpe la kn..pastu g tgk wyggggg!!!!!thanks syg for keeping ur promise.last2 u tgk jgk dgn i..3D lg owh..syookkkkk..hehehe..biarlah kalau i jakun ponn...haha...
finally, smpai ke campus..ade perbincangan skit.bout kesalahan i..sorry syg..fucking sorry..u dont have to worry anymore..coz it wont happen again..u're confession made me stronger and made me aware...everytime ur tears fall, i feel guilty.tp mlm tu, airmata u tu jd smgt utk i jd org yg lebih baik..utk betulkan diri i lg..sbb i masih bnyk kekurangan..i da makin besemangat nk bercinta dgn cara yg betul..thnks to u :')
i love you so much sayang. u know that kan.so u dont have to worry okay. :)

1 Syawal 1431 H

Akhirnya, syawal pon tiba setelah sebulan bersama ramadhan. raya tahun ni aku xtau la apasal. rasa lain sgt. perassan, emosi lebih. cam bdoh. skit2 da bleh jd sebak. ngah taip ni pon sebak. haihh. da xleh nk menaip pulak dah ni. come on la apit!lembik sgt la kau! bodoh!
sambung crite. tahun ni mkn pagi raya x dpt mkn same ngan ali. tiba2 ade breakdown pulak. kesian dia x dpt merasa ketupat pagi2 raya ngan kitorang. xpelah. tanggungjawab. nnt aku pon ngadap jgk. tgu mase je.
siang td g umah anjang ngan maklong.dpt la merasa mskn dorang. burasak terbaikk. nk sgt bg syg rasa. tp nk wat cane.
ali balik keje mlm baru dpt amik gmbr satu family. tahun ni best skit sbb ade camera baru. thanks daddy! hijau pucuk pisang tema kami sekeluarga. pas amik gmbr mcm biase la, salam2 mintak maaf. kali ni aku betul2 rasa lain. rasa mcm aku ni dah bnyk sgt nyusahkan ibu ngan ayah. smpai bila? mintk maaf ngan dorang td pon nyaris2 nangis. kalau lame skit kompem da banjir dah. sebaik lincah2 je. pastu dpt duit raya.haha. x sangke. ali, ibu ana bagi. thanks korang.
for my sayang, i xtau nape i jd camtu ptg td. i rasa ape yg u buat tu sweet sgt. lg satu sbb x jangke langsung. mayb bg u bnde tu mcm xde pape tp bg i, it was really meaningful. thankyou so much for giving me the chance to feel that. i love you.
lepas aku da pikir lame2 masak2, aku rasa aku jadi mcm ni tahun ni sbb otak kau da makin matang. pikiran aku. perasaan aku. aku da mula menghargai bende sume. even kecik mcm mane pon. hargai bnde selagi dia ade dpn mate kite. Allah maha kuasa.bila2 je Dia boleh amik bnde tu dr kita. dah 20 tahun aku hidup kt dunia ni baru aku dpt belajar menghargai dgn lebih baik. lmbb sgt kau ni pit.
untuk ibu, ayah, ana, ika, ali, apit akan berusaha bersungguh2. utk jd org yg berguna. apit pon kalau boleh xnk nyusah kan korang lagi. tp apit x mampu nk buat sorang2. apit perlukan korang semua. thanks sbb ade dgn apit.
untuk syg, sorry atas segala kesilapan b. b ni bodoh, bangang, sengal. so please ajar b. please bgtau apa yg b patut tau. jgn biarkn b jd mcm ni je. b pnh ckp, b nk membimbing dan dibimbing.b nk syg yg jd org yg membimbing b tu. b xnk org lain. b rindu syg sgt2. lama sgt da x jmpe ni. haihh. hope sume plan kita berjalan lancar. amin.
note to self : jgn jd bodoh lagi.belajar.hargai.bersyukur.

finally, selamat menyambut adilifitri. maaf zahir & batin.

parents : unfair

parents, they are apart of my life, ur life, everyone's life, mostly.so my life isnt fair.at least from my point of view.but wh does the parents that is in my life have to be unfair too?it is seen from what they choose.or who.haha.come on lah.u guys should know best.u guys are old, older, old enough.dont judge ppl.thats just unfair, at all.love them as who they are.accept them as what they are.dont be too picky.i'm saying this to those who are already in the family and those who are entering a family.
i'm hoping that i wont be like that.i dont want my childrens or anyone to feel that.it wolud be sad for them.
hopefully, amin.

good for you

its good to see that u're happy
u should've told me earlier
but at least now i know :)

US

fara, dont say that please..
dont give up on me now..
i'll do whatever it takes to work it out, to work our relationship out..
even if we're far apart..i'll try my best syg..
for US....
as long as we love each other, we can do anything..we only need some effort..
and please, i beg of you, trust me..believe what i say..
i'm doing it for you, me and us..

:l

ana sampai jugak akhirnya kt melaka..
dapat buka sama2 ngan syg, ana, eqa, epeng kt pntai eye on msia..
tu pon mcd je..hahaha
then ayie dtg, g lepak hang tuah..
lame x jmpe dorang..lepak lame la jugak..
tp esok nye dah kena balikk :(
x best sbb syg x dpt ikot skaliii...mama x bg..
xpelahh..
pas anta syg balik trs gerak balik jb..
b4 naik highway da ckp da kat ana "ana, kalau pancit tyr ni aku xleh tkr tau"..
hahaha, amik kau..x lame pas naik highway btol2 pancit..
call plus.sebaik pastu dpt tkr..
balik2 ayh mara2 sbb lmbt, haihh...tension je..nk pnjm kete pon xleh..sabar jela pitt...

da kt jb masuk ni 2 hari.. :(
g buka ngan dak2 skola..lepak lepak lepak..
lama glee x jmpe dorang..

tapiiiii.....

sayang mara :(
soorrrryyyyyyy sgt3 sbb x txt u syg..
i igt u..sentiase..bkn x igt...jgnlah mara i... :(((
i f**king miss u baby..
jgnlah canii..
fuck btol cuti lama2..bangang..ni baru 2 hari, kalau 2 mggu?bpk r.mst rndu gile2 babi siot..
haihhhhhhh :(((
i hope to see you really2 soon syg..

p/s: i love you, only you :(

happy 1 month annyversary!

sayanggggg.....!!!
happy 1 month annyversary syggg....
hehehe..sorryy lmbt sikit wish kt u..kecoh la kure bley buat kantoi plak..
i ternanti2 sgt nk wish kt u..da resah gile dah ade org ajak lepak plakk..hehehe
tp i dpt jgk wish first.. :P
sorry sgt present x seberapa sygg, tu je yg i mampu..
harap sgt2 u suka surprise i..hehehe..suka sgt tgk muka u mase u amik kn sweater i.. :)))

bagi i, ni baru permulaan.permulaan utk relationship kita.relationship kita yg i sentiase harapkan boleh smpai bila2.amin.

p/s : i syg u tauuu..smpn ros tu eyh syg..

suap, suap, suap.

hehehehe
aritu sahur kt temenggong ngan syg.
best jgk la ahur sane.mcm2 ade.tp x dpt try ns lemak die lg.org kate sdp.
sahur yg memberi pengalaman baru kt aku.

MENYUAP

hahahaha
x penah umur suapkan org mkn.
smapi kekok ha.hehehe
tp seronokkkk.budak manje.comel je nk kene suapkan.mcm budak kecik.
da jadi addicted pulak nk suapkan dia makan.
pasni nk sahur lagi kt temenggung tapi bila?
klas dah la pagi sume.
rjn plak nak tdo dlm kalau klas pagi.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
xpe, nnt b try k bdk manje. :)
syg awak si comel :*

raya!

haihh...sahur buka sahur buka, dah nk dkt raye dah ha..kesian kt ana ngan eqa sbb preparations semua die buat kt umah..kalau boleh nak balik tolong diorang..seronok nk rayeee...
tapiii, tahun ni x raya sakan la.xde shopping2 sgt lah..xpela pit..da besar pjg da pon..nk shopping ape lg..dah ade dorang da cukup dah..ana eqa ibu ayah ali..nk ape lagi..kalau xde dorang nk raya ngan sape lg pit..besyukur.. :')
tahun ni raya ada tambahan org tesayang :) u kene puasa n raya kt umah i tauuu...x kire x kire..hehehe..cuti dah la lame..nnt mst i rndu u syg :( u kne jage dri elok2..jgn degil2..okay?
pape pon, kene la abiskan puase dulu..baru la boleh nk beraye ye..hehehe..
:)

s.m.i.l.e.

smiling
its great to see you smile, it makes me wanna smile.
everytime i see you for the first time everyday, it makes me wanna smile.
everytime u're looking at me, it makes me wanna smile.
everytime u're focusing on doing something, it makes me wanna smile.
everytime we're doing something together, it makes me wanna smile.

i love to seeing you smiling. it calms me when i'm not.
so please, do smile always.because u have a lovely smile. :)

p/s = i'll take that as an achievement.hahaha. :P

sweet

it's like i was hearing it for the first time.but with full meaning of it.
OMG, it's indescribable.the feeling : freakin happy.and i can't stop smiling.
and for that, thankyou sayang. :) ily

thankyou

it's clearer now. i understand. ur situation is different. i get it.
it's okay. don't make it as a reason. pleasse. because i wont make it as a reason.
i love you. and that is all that matters. okay? :)
just smile. coz i'll always be here. for you.
it's not that i'm trying to be the best, it's just that i want to be a better person. than before.
but if trying to be better is just the same as trying to be the best, so be it. no harm in trying kan? :)
ily.

hmm

was it me?if it was, im effing sorry dear.
u tau i xkn nk sakitkan ati u kn.
kenapa?tu je yg i nk tau syg.
whats the point of being together if we cant tell each other everything?
we can always work it out, together.
awal2 lagi i da ckp kt u, usehe kn.
pape je bley jd dgn usehe.
i sanggup.utk kita.
hmm.
whatever it is, please baby, dont go. :(

sukeee...

at last, dlm jgk jln dgn dia..
lps rndu skit..hehehe...
wat keje gle plak tu..grk ptg ngan bagang, then blek campus kol 10, g meeting, then kuar balik tgk muvee lg..hahaha
expendables bley thn, eventho a bit menghampakan, tp ok la..
descent plak, sgt selekeh..hahaha..menatang ape ntah tu...yuck!

syg, thanks for your time..had fun! :*

:(

nape la lately ni.

tiap2 ari jmpe pon still rndu lagi.

haihh.xphm.

hehehehe

tapi sukeeee.... :P

x sabar nk kuar jln2..

kalau smpt kte g tgk wyg k syg? :)

heee... :D

awww...

i rindu u jgk syg...
xtau la knape ek..
i rase kte da lame x spend time kot..hmm...
i really miss hugging you :(
lately asik gado je..
i btol2 mntk maaf syg...
xmo gado2 lagi eh..
love you syg..

sabar jela pit...

ish, asal la bodoh sgt ek.
suruh wat bnde simple je, tu pon xleh nk siapkan.bangang.
skg aku plak yg kne.haihh.
leceh tol la.sakit betol hati.
bley thn menyusahkan org gak la.
hmmmm....

hmm

im worried
worried of going overboard
worried of losing it
worried of doing something stupid
worried of being not enough
worried of losing u
worried of u
but worrying is just not enough huh.
hmmmm.
dear Allah, give me strength, give me light, give me serenity.
amin.

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