Nak nangis kuat2 boleh?

Pinjam bahu sape2 please. I really2 need a shoulder to cry on. Haiiihhhh. 'Tidak berjaya'. Tu je yg tertulis kn situ. Senang2 je kn dorg tu. Jahat betul lah. Hmm.
Sedih sgt2. Xtau kenapa. Yelah. Aku ni sensitif skit bab2 bnde mcm ni. Mane x nye. Dah mengharap sgt2 kot bnde tu. SANGAT SANGAT okayy!
Tp semua bnde jd ade sebab musabab nye kn? Mungkin tuhan xnak bg aku rasa bnde ni. Dia nk suh aku susah dulu. Lagpun mungkin aku akan spend duit tu x betul sgt. Tu sbb kot. X pun bnde lain ke? Utk future aku? Kan kan kan? Haaaaa.. Menjadi org positif skg ni. Mencuba sedaya upaya. Memaksa senyuman dpn kwn2 aku skg ni. Sgt xde mood sebenar benarnye. Tp xpelah. Paksa jelah diri ni. Kalau kita ikutkan sgt frust ni pun bkn dpt ape pun ek. Sia sia je.
Soooooo, be strong apit! U're tougher than this! Get over it!
Ibu, ayah, ana, ika ngan ali. Apit mntk maaf la sbb x dpt nk senangkan korg buat mase ni. Buat mase ni, apit akan susahkan korg lg. Sorry sgt2. I've let all of you down. Tp xpe. Mungkin masa akan dtg apit akan senangkan korg. I'll get through this. Korg support apit tau! Dah kerja nnt apit akan balas balik budi n jasa korg kt apit. I promise! :'D

Sekian. Luahan utk kali ni. Thankyou for reading.

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Dedicate!

Hahahahahahahahahaa. Nk dedicate lagu 'Cheated - Mike Posner' kt kau. Dulu lagu Mike Posner jgk kn. Yg skg lain skit. Hahahahahaha. For fun je. Don't take it too seriously! Enjoy! :D
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Ikat perut!

Nak ikat perut pakai ape r sng? Hahahaha. Nmpk gayenye lps ni aku dah kene ikat perut la. Dah 2 mggu pt masuk, n now tgl 500 je. Nmpk la jgk ade dpt brg2, dpt blanje2 org, kuar2, byr utang skit2 n plg pntg bg mak bapak. Okay la tu kn? Lps ni xde la tu semua. Limit2 la semua. Dah xde karoke ke wyg ke ape dah pasni.

Nak kerja sbnrnye. Tp takot. Takot x pndai bahagi masa. Yelah. Assignment dah ada. Penat2 nk buat assignment pejadahnye kn. Hmmm. Tgklah nanti mcm mana. haiihhh. Next week da kene byr umah sewa. Ni baru betul2 sengkek tahap gaban ni. Xpelah. Mcm aku ckp selalu kt mmbe2 aku, duit boleh dicari, rezeki ade kt mana2 je. Sentiasa berfikiran positif! Dah mls nk tension2 semak2 kepala. Nak relaaaxxxxx jeee.. Hahahaha. ;)

Hadkan perbelanjaa ye apit. Kawal nafsu berbelanja tu. Even skg ni sbnrnye ade bnde nk beli lagi, tp nk buat cane. Lenkali jelah. :)
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Re: Fwd:

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Apology

Elton john said it seems to be the hardest word. I guess so.
But even eminem said it to his mama. Y can't I?
And btw, sorry one republic. I have to disagree with you. Its never too late to apologise. Its better late than never.

Here, me, ahmad nor afiq would like to apologise for some things.
1stly, I would like to say sorry to anyone whom I've mad mistakes to. Maybe by talking, action, a joke, or anything that made you uncomfortable, or hurt your feelings. I'm sorry.
Next, I would like to say I'm sorry if I've ever given false hope to you. Hope that I should have never gave. Maybe my intentions were misunderstood. Maybe my ways or actions shouldn't have been the way it were. Therefore the fault was mine. I'm sorry.
Next, for you, I'm sorry I put too much hope in you. I suffocated you. I've put so much hate in you. All because of what I've done. I expected too much on you. I'm sorry.
Next, I'm sorry I had to do it. I know you relied on me. I know you would've wanted me to stay. But I can't. Not in the way you wanted. I'm sorry.
Last and definitely not the least, I'm sorry to all of you at home if I ever let you guys down, if I ever did what u didn't want me to do, if I ever disobeyed you. I'm sorry.

All of these was never my intention. I would never do it on purpose. Please forgive me. And if I missed something, I'm sorry. After all, I'm still a child, still young, and full of mistakes.

My highest hopes, if only I could be a better person than before, a better person than yesterday, a better person than I am now.

Dear God, give me the strength to be what I am supposed to be, a better man. Put me on the right track. Give me the will to change myself. Amin.

That's all for tonight. Goodnight guys. Thankyou for reading.

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Updates!

Now, nk update psl diri sndri pulak. Hehe. Skg dah start belajar. Klas semua dah kene pegi. Kalau x jd bodoh aku nnt. Mslh pulak buku ni. Xtau la. Rase mcm nk beli buku mahal2 tu, konon2 berkat la. Tp beratus2 pulak hbs nnt. Hmm. Xtau lah. Tp buku penting. Dah start belajar, kene start buat note. Kalau x tertinggal nnt. Aku dah berazam nk maintain pointer. Kene la effort lebih skit kn? Hmmmm...

Psl rumah pulak. Hidup kt rumah ni sgt leceh. Even kt sebelah fac pun, still jauh gak nk pegi. Baru 2 hari moto dah rm5 dah minyak. Mampos mcm ni. Moto dah lah pinjam. Terima kasih kpd 'si dia' sbb bg pnjm moto sementara tgu moto aku smpai dr jb. (*hugs)

Love/social life pulak. Mcm biase. Kwn2 ajak lepak, aku lepak. Ajak futsal, aku futsal. Tp skg ni ade skit mase dilebihkan utk dia. Yelah. Aku bnyk terhutang budi ngan dia. Buat masa ni, kita dua2 xleh kemana. Belum bersedia la maksudnye. So sementara ade peluang, aku nk spend time secukupnya ngan dia. Degree aku x lama lg nk hbs dah. Entah ape nk jd dah time tu kn. So skg dah x pk psl status ke ape ke, skg ni aku ikut je flow. Ke mana angin bwk aku, aku ikut :)

Utk awak yg kt jb tu plak. Sorry. Xde niat nk sakitkan, hancurkan hati awak. Kite bleh berkwn. Tp kene la dgn cara yg betul. Bkn sembunyi2 dr certain2 org. Hope awak phm. Doa sy utk awak, semoga awak berbahagia di samping si dia awak. Sy nmpk mase dpn awak dah terjamin dah. Alhamdulillah. :)

And last but not least, for my bff. Sori haritu x dpt jmpe. Serious weyh pnt gila. Nnt aku balik lagi kita lepak lah k. Jgn marah2 tau. Nnt cpt tua. Tua dari usia. Hee. My btw! Tc tau! :D

Ha kau. Sekali update ttg diri sendiri melambak2 keluar ha. Hahaha. Dah lah. Nak mandi siap2. Nak g buka jap lg. Dgn . . . . . Hehehe. Take care guys! Thanks for reading! Assalam! :D
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Disconnect

Sorry. Ni jalan terbaik supaya aku x kacau2 kau lg, x semak2 kn kepala kau lg, x buat kau marah2 berangin lagi. Haha. Aku tau kau pun nk bnde yg sama. N kau pun suka mcm ni. Aku fhm. Okay. Smpai disini saja.
Sekian ;)
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Overreacted

Amboi kemain marah lagi blogpost dia. Hahaha. Sorry lah. Aku tertekan skit time tu. Abis dah excited gila kot. Xpe2. Aku mintak maaf semua slh silap aku dr hujung rambut smpai hujung kaki k. Pasni aku x kacau kau lagi dah ye. Kau pun dah nk ade life baru ke ape tah aku pun xtau. Haha. So mmg sesuai sgt la masanye skg ni kn? Hee.

Doa aku utk kau, semoga kau berbahagia, semoga kau sihat selalu, dan semoga kau cpt kawen. Hehehehe. JK. Tc ye. Assalam. :)
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Keluhan. Hmph.

Haiihhh. Nyampah lah aku. Seroius weyh. Aku bknye tiap2 ari kot dtg. Jarang sekali la. Ape la slhnye kan. Mmg la da xde pape. tp aku da ckp dr awal lg doe nk dtg. Mmg da mengharap sgt da nk kua ngan kau. Tp tu lah. Kau pun bz ngan kwn2 kau kn. Xpelah. Dah nmpk la kt situ. Okay la tu kn. Now aku dah tau. Xde la mcm bodo aku lps ni.

Yg si kura ngan zaty ni plak x hbs2 nk backup kau. X hbs2 suh aku ngan kau balik. Naik penat dah nk jwb. Pastu kaauuu je sntiase betul. Ape syg sgt dorg ni kt kau pun aku xtau la.

Mls dah la. Buat serabut kepala je. Lps ni nk dtg sni kalau bgtau last minit ke, bgtau awal2 ke pun same je. Dulu bgtau last mnit, kau ade pakwe kau, boleh plak kua kn. Xtau ah aku. X phm ah. Agaknye skg dah lg ramai kot. Tu yg x free tu. Ahaha. Sorry.

K lah. Sorry pembaca. Tension kejap. Dr mlm td pk bnde ni. Sedih sbnrnye. Hampa. Frust. Abis dah excited gila kot. Tp? Hmmm. Tp x guna kn. Da la. Nk g breakfast kt sungai petai. Jmpe lagi. :)
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Sorry my dearest :(

Maybe I'm harsh. Maybe I'm cruel. But from my view, we can't be. I'm too comfortable just the way we are. I don't want to take risks. Things will be different if we're together. Seriously. Maybe u're not thinking what I'm thinking. But for now, I think this is the best way.

Thankyou for understanding. Thankyou for accepting. And thankyou for everything.

ASA sentiasa okay? Don't worry. :)
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Sem baruuuu!

Tu dia. Class dah start. Td baru g 1st class. Lecturer tu klakar. Dia nigerian. Hahaha. Lawak gila dia nk hafal nama budak2. Mcm biase la, skimming2 je 1st class. Pastu dah.

Turun bwh tu, perrggghhhhhhh..junior2 tgh dftr.. Perggghhhhhhhhh!!! Hahaha. Rambang mata weyh. Serius mcm2 org ade. Yelah. Tgh single kan. Tipu la kalau xde niat nk ade gf. Tp ntahlah. Tgk dorg mcm mls je. Xtau la hati ni tgh ade kt org lain ke, otak ni pk semak kalau ade gf ke, takut effect result ke. Terus terang aku ade syg kt sorg ni. tp dia ckp dia belum sedia. So friends it is. Aku happy dpt jmpe dia. Sbb rindu dia sangat2. Kisah kitorg pun tergantung sbnrnye. So skg ni buat mcm biase jela. Hmm.

So far, aku happy balik shah alam ni. Sbb dpt jmpe kwn2 yg dah lama x jmpe. Nak lepakkk jee.. Tp pk duit kn. Kene save skit. InshaAllah semua okay. Aku tekad sem ni nk berubah. Even x ketara pun, kene la berubah skit. Aku kene score. Hope aku dapat lah. Amin. :D

K guys, nk rest, jap lg ade class. Later.
Thanks for reading. :)
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Trip to Desaru/Batu layar!

Oh! Hampir terlupa! Hahahaha. Last minit plan nk buat trip ke pantai. Ala dkt je desaru. Naik highway x smpai 1 jam. Mmg plan mula2 dah elok la nk ramai2. Tp sygnye, am xleh g. Pastu ade la org2 yg yes x yes je nk g. Hampeh tol! Mcm sial! Last2 kitorg berlima je pegi. Aku ayun din ezan acin. Ok what. Drpd xde org kn.

Plan ade la lari skit sbb ade org tu bijak tertido balik. Tp okay lah. Dpt jgk mandi wpon kjp. Kjp pon aku dah pnt. Maybe sbb x tido mlm tu. Abis dah terbiase tido kul 5. Pastu bleh plak ptg semalamnye aku dah tido. Ha amik kau xleh tido. Hahahaha!

Balik je dr desaru tu, dlm tghari gtu, kitorg g lunch jap, then grk karok! Hahaha. Am ana n ika join skali. Amik kau karok bagai nak rak, jap g nk byr rm15 je? Hahaha. 3 jam beb! Cool!

puas jgk la kuar haritu. Best!!! Spend time last dgn kwn2. Hmm. Time tu la baru kita tau sape kwn kita sebenar. Kan kan kan? Yg sanggup susahkan diri dan sama2 susah utk spend time sama2. Syg doe korg sume. Thanks for the memories guys! <3

Sekian. Thanks for reading. :)
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goodbye JB, hello SA :)

diam x diam, 3 bulan dah aku kt jb ni. rasa mcm kjp je. sebelum nk tempu tu pk mcm lamaaa je kn. tp masa jalan cpt betul. mcm2 dah aku buat cuti ni. tipu la kalau aku ckp aku x puas cuti ni. aku rasa aku dah cukup dah cuti. mmg ngam ah. n aku dah sedia nk naik sem baru. aku harap semua berjalan lancar lah. aku kalau boleh nk keje naik sem ni. cari duit lebih. pastu org ckp, kalau kita lagi bz kan diri kita, otak kita lagi bagus. aku igt nk mcm tu la. tp aku kene betul2 bahagikan masa. kalau x abis aku. yg plg penting, aku xleh ade gf. kalau x hancurrrr. so aku nk focus betul2 dulu. aku nk maintain kn result aku. tu misi utama aku. yg lain2 aku tolak tepi. aku bkn x pk. pk tp x pk sgt lah. hahaha. kekusutan dlm relationship adalah bnde plg aku xnak skali. plg aku nk elakkan. hopefully, ape yg aku nk aku dpt lah. amin.

doakan saya ye kawan2. terima kasih. :D

selamat hari raya!

makaih da 2 mggu raya baru nk post psl raya an. hahaha. sorrry lah. bz skit lah.
taun ni x balik kg pon. ade la mslh tertentu. so beraya sakan kt jb beb! da la x balik kg, pastu cuti @ mggu, pergh terbaik dok! kawkaw punye raya! semua rumah kalau boleh nk beraya. kalau x dgn mmbe, dgn family. kalau x dgn family, dgn mmbe plak. mmg x dok umah. hahaha. puas la jgk aku beraya taun ni. duit raya pun bnyk jgk dpt. alhamdulillah :)

kepada semua rakan2 @ kenalan @ saudara mara, saya Ahmad Nor Afiq bin Abd Aziz mengucapkan selamat hari raya aidilfitri dan maaf zahir batin dr hujung rambut ke hujung kaki. :)