KISAH AKU DAN DIA

Chapter 5 : The Final Chapter

dalam kebahagiaan tu, aku sedar yg semakin lama, aku dan dia semakin jauh.masa berlalu.hati aku dah mula meracau time tu.x sdp hati.aku tgk dia dah kurang syg aku.aku sedar bnde tu.kenapa?mungkin ke sbb kau dah jmpe kwn2 kau?mungkin sbb kau dah bosan dgn aku?atau mungkin sbb aku yg dah x thn.dan aku mula berhenti berusaha?sbb tu ke?tu semua aku x sedar dah.bnyk yg dia buat kat aku, aku telan.sbb aku syg dia.tp, pntg aku buat slh, hm.ade org ckp aku bdoh, aku pon xtau la.even baru 3 bulan kite berkwn, aku rasa mcm2 kita dah lalui bersama.macam macam.tu yg develop syg aku kt kau.serious aku ckp, aku da ready utk jd kn kau psgn hidup aku.aku dah terima baik buruk kau semua.aku x kisah.aku pndg ke depan.yg lepas aku dah x peduli dah.

tapi, yg skrg mcm mana pulak?yg kau buat.yg aku nak.yg kau nk.yg aku buat.semua tu.aku jujur ckp yg keinginan aku x semua tercapai.aku terbatas.aku x jadi diri aku sndri, 100%.tp itu usaha aku utk jaga relation ni.tu pengorbanan aku.biarlah ape org nk ckp skali pon.aku x heran.

tp aku cuma manusia.semuanya bertahap.hari2 akhir aku dgn kau, kau langsung x cari aku, x care psl aku.sedih.aku tgh exam.tp aku bertahan jgk.dgn adenye kwn2 aku.aku amik keputusan utk bertindak.dan tindakan aku, mnyebabkan respon kau yg sebegitu.

dan akhirnya, aku give up.tahap aku dah tercapai.aku amik keputusan utk pergi.pergi dari kau.sbb kau x perlukan aku lg.kau bahagia xde aku.kau lg selesa xde aku.so, utk ape aku kt situ lagi?ade yg ckp aku deserve better.ye ke?bg aku, ni balasan utk aku.sebab bnde2 bdoh aku yg dulu.aku pnh ckp sblum ni pegangan aku, karma.dan bnde tu terkene kt aku sndri.bodoh kau ni pit.aku da wat yg terbaik utk kau.tp aku punye terbaik x ckup utk dptkn kau punye terbaik.

di situ, berakhirlah relation kita.berakhirlah segalanya.berakhirlah aku punye 'everything'.slh aku jgk.sape suruh all out.sape soh jadikan dia aku pnye segalanye.sbb bila dia pergi, aku dah xde apa2.

tp hari berlalu, dan aku semakin pulih.masa mmg akn mnyembuh kan.cuma sebanyak mana masa yg kita perlukn je.kau da pon move on.and skrg, turn aku plak.

itulah dia, kisah aku dan dia.
dan ia berakhir disini.

end of the final chapter 

 seikhlasnya, Afiq Aziz

KISAH AKU DAN DIA

Chapter 4 : Di Alam Percintaan

akhirnya, kitorang pon officially in a relationship!hahaha.happy nye aku time tu.seronok.suka.hahaha.mcm2 aku rasa.xterkata.dia baik sgt.aku ade mslh, dia nasihat, kalau dia boleh tlg, dia tlg.aku suka gile.dan makin lama, aku semakin syg kt dia.aku pon xtau nape.xleh thn, kitorg celebrate kitorg pnye seminggu cple.hahaha!7?kaw2.

aku nmpk yg makin lame, dia pon makin syg kt aku.dia berjnj nk berubah satu hari nnt.aku pgg kt kate2 dia tu.aku skit demi dkit berubah.utk dia.ape dia x suke semua aku buang.aku try sehabis baik.semata2 utk jaga relationship ni.sbb aku sygkn dia.sgt2.dan aku yakin time tu yg dia lah aku punye jodoh.

tibe2, masalah besar menimpa.haihhhhh.time tu kitorang tabah hadap same2.sbb same2 punce kn.so, kitorang chill je.nasib aku baik sbb dia phm aku dlm situasi tu.dia ikutkan aku.sorry.kesian awak jd mangsa.awak x bersalah pon.sorry skali lg.tp, kite slow2 cari jln penyelesaian.dan smapi satu mase, kite setelkan jgk.lega.even time tu kau sakit, tp aku nmpk yg kau syg aku sgt3 time tu.aku xtau nape.tibe2 kau kucup aku, tibe2 kau ckp kau syg aku.haha.bahagia gila aku time tu.serious shit aku happy dgn kau yg itu.

aku rase mcm xde mslh langsung je time tu.selagi kau ada dgn aku.time tu aku hadap mslh aku sndri, financial aku.tp kau ade.kau tlg aku.satu hari nnt aku ganti balik k,inshaAllah.aku xtau ape jd kt aku kalau kau xde time tu.terima kasih sgt2.budi kau akan aku balas.

chapter ni aku sgt bahagia.terjaga.dicinta.disayangi.oleh kau.

end of chapter 4

KISAH AKU DAN DIA

Chapter 3 : Cinta Berputik

kitorang knl2 sjk dr tu.knl pnye knl pnye knl, bnyk gle persamaan.haha.bnyj gile gile sgt sgt bnyk!n dari tu, aku rase she is the one.bnyk kali aku hintkan kt dia, aku ckp la kt dia aku da nk in a relation.tp bnyk kali dia ckp dia x ready, dia takot, mcm2.aku pon mcm x sdp la kn.so kitorang go on as friends dulu.kemane2 aku dgn dia je.dia mntk tlg aku tlg.aku mntk tmn dia tmn.kitorng da mcm belangkas dah.dan orgt pon semakin sedar aku dgn dia.aku x kisah pon, aku lg suka.haha.biar org tau, aku da serius nk kwn ngan dia.aku cuma risaukan dia je, takot jatuh market dia.tp dia ckp dia ok.haha.aku lg lah ok kalau dia ok.

aku da start kenalkn dia kt kwn2 aku.kt mana2 je kwn2 aku tu, aku knlkn jgk.sape2 jelah.haha.kitorang da mcm xleh dipisahkan.even dr time tu lg, kitorg da ade gadoh2.tp biasela, getting to know each other kn.aku berUSAHA utk menjayakan relationship aku ngan dia.smpaikn x tentu arah kalau gadoh.hee.bdoh je.

kitorang makin lama makin rapat.rapat gila lah.wpon sbnrnye time tu x declare pape lg.smapi satu kejadian tu.kitorang beli baju same!haha.sweet gile.balik dr jln2 tu, aku rase mcm nk pop the question.aku rase da smpai mase.aku rase sia boleh.aku boleh blah ngan dia.aku da ready.then, aku tnye dia.time tu txt je.dia marah!haha.dia ckp 'u xde effort syg'. sentap gak r time tu.tp btol gak, xkn txt je kn.aku pon call.ushar pnyr ushar last2 dia ckp dia nk.hahahahaha!sumpah happy gile aku time tu!mcm nk nangis doe!hee.pnye lah excited, aku call la kura n zaty.so, dorang lah yg tau dr mula aku kwn ngan awek tu.

nk tau tarikhnye?1hb august.haha.genap sebulan mntk num dia. :P 

end of chapter 3

KISAH AKU DAN DIA

Chapter 2 : Sesi Pengenalan 

penyambungan cerita, maka naiklah semester baru. aku dgn rasa rajinye jadilah pm.pembantu mesra.hahaha
xde keje an naik awal2 pegi jage budak baru nk dftr. xpelah. dpt duit, n weekend ni plak dpt g holiday. 
ceritanya bermula begini. hari pertama mggu MDS. pendaftaran ke kolej. jmpe la mak bpk budak ape sume. time tu da ptg dah. aku pon dah pnt. dok la kt kaunter kos aku. sblh tu pulak, OM. x aku sangke2 yg aku nmpk nk pegi ke kaunter OM tu, awek yg selama ni aku stalk.hahaha.bedebar2 jantung aku time tu. dia da lps dftr, aku pun bgn ikut dia slow2. dan2 buat keje. tgk dia mcm blur2 je, aku pon tegur la dia. aku ckp la nk kne g kolej ape sume. da tu, aku tnye 'fara kan?dlu keje gsc kn?pastu mbo kn?'.hahahaha.muka dia time tu blur abis, ngangguk je.jd aku x slh org la kn.haha.masuk uitm budak ni.mati2 mase aku nmpk dia dulu aku igt dia da besar da keje.damn!tertipu.

sejak dari tu, sepanjang minggu MDS, aku mencari2 lah dia.knon2 nk ushar2 lah kn.ade skali dia tetinggal brg kt kolej.dia mntk tlg.aku pon belgak mcm hero mntk mmbe aku hntrkn.hehe.tp dlm mggu tu susah tol aku nk jmpe dia.

smpai mase last day MDS.time tu mlm, tgh slm2 la ngan junior2 sume.aku ni, dok luar tu, tgu pnye tgu pnye tgu lah awek ni kuar.tp x kuar2.smpai bdk pempuan da abis da.frust gak time tu.aku igt dah telepas.jap lag ade 3 org pmpuan kuar lmbt, yg kiri ngan kanan aku nmpk muke, bkn dia.tp yg tgh asik terlindung je.grm aku.smpai dia kt tmpt aku, aku tgk rupenye dia!melompat aku dpn dia.hahaha.sbb nk mntk num.bodo la siot.lps dpt, menjerit2 aku melompat kt basa ckp dah dpt!hahahahaha!

start dr tu, kitorg knl2, text2 ape sume.yg buatkn aku lg suka kt dia ni, dia pnh skali txt aku 1st.aku rase mcm miracle time tu.excited gile.kirenye mcm x betepuk sblh tgn la.hahaha. 

aku igt lagi, 1hb july, time tu lah aku dpt num dia.hahaha.lps dr tu, aku start berjinak2. :P



end of chapter 2.

KISAH AKU DAN DIA

haih.belum tulis lg dah berkaca bijik mata aku ni.i'm gonna be strong on this one.okay, go!
mungkin ade yg dah tau kisah2 ni.tp bg yg xtau, bacelah. :)
 
Chapter 1 : Detik Pertemuan (stalking)
hahaha.chapter ni mungkin akan menampakkan aku seorang yg loser.kisah kami bermula begini.semasa aku di semester 5,  aku selalu pegi tgk wyg, gsc, ngan bestie ku, basa.dlm aku g tgk wyg tu, aku ternmpk ade awek ni sumpah comel gile babi!haha.tgk dr jauh je.dgn fringe die, mate sepet, comel je dok kt kaunter tu.aku ckp ngan basa, 'jom basa g kt kaunter dia, comel la sial awek tu'.then kite pon pegi.da tgh bli barang, aku tgk je awek tu.basa je yg beckp ngan dia.aku nmpk nametag dia tulis 'fara'.terus melekat kt paler otak aku name dia.hahaha.jap lg da nk blah basa boleh plak dajal aku.dia ckp kt awek tu, 'kwn sy ckp awak comel'.babi punye basa.aku ni pemalu.x reti ushar2 awek ni :P. then aku pon tros bleh tanpe mengatakan apa2.segan doe!then kite pon tros masuk hall.haha.

sejak dari itu, setiap kali aku g tgk wyg, aku akn cari awek yg bermata sepet, bernama fara.cari bkn nk ape pon.nk tgk je.comel gile mslhnye.suke ngadap.kdg2 bratur beli tiket, kalau boleh nk kt kaunter dia, tp x dpt.nk tegur x brani.tgk je lah.haha.u're such a loser apit.tu yg mcm stalker tu.hee.

mase baru abis final pulak, aku g tgk wyg kt mbo ngan cikbarb n bagang.tgk cite robinhood kalau x silap aku time tu.smpai2 kt kaunter, aku nmpk awek yg aku stalk dkt gsc.aku pon beranikan diri menegur dia.aku ckp 'fara kn?dulu keje gsc?'.dia pon dgn terpinga2 mengangguk.aku tnye lagi, 'mane pegi rambut lame?'. dia ckp x buat dah.hahaha.then aku blah.wpon cam bangang je tegur, bedebar2 gak ah!

and last part of my stalking, a few weeks lps tu.aku nmpk dia kt dataran.dia ngan mmbe2 dia.aku kemain excited lg nmpk dia.aku ckp ngan bagang, 'gang!awek kt mbo aritu doe!'hahaha.tp dr jauh je.
then cuti sem, balik ke jb.tp dia still aku igt.sbb hajat mcm x lepas.hahaha.


end of chapter 1

degil

kenapa kau xnk dgr ckp org?ape jgk la kau ni. org syg kau, nk jaga kau, kau buat org tu mcm ni?xphm la aku.kau jage lah diri kau tu baik2.kau ckp kau tau baik buruk, tp same je mcm xtau.cpt2la matangkn dri.demi kebaikan kau.

get a grip apit!

damnit apit!what has gotten into you?why are you this way?come on!keep moving.she has already moved on.why havent you?
hm.its because i love her so much.and from that we can know how much she loves me.or does she?hm.
the more i look at our pictures, her pictures, the more it makes me wanna cry.why?i miss her too much.i dont even know why.we've went thru so much together.many were shocked this thing happened.many said we were so sweet together.but no more.
so, i am trying my best.as i have tried my best with you, so i am going to try my best without you.
i know that you are doing just fine without me.like you said, you dont need me. but sadly, that only makes one of us. :|
please be with me friends.help me thru this.i need you guys.just as much as i need her.

dear Allah, give me strength.so i can move on.give me cure for this pain.and give me light so i wont be in the dark by showing me the way. Amin.

tears

it came.slowly.after i looked at a picture.collage actually.

what the fuck?as far as i know myself, i'm not like this.

damn it!this is big.gotta try harder apit.it's killing you.

this is the hardest part that i have to go thru.it hurts, seriously.

hm.

i miss you by,so so so much, :'(

syukur

petanda.

macam2 dah aku nmpk. macam2 dah Dia bg. tp aku je yg buat2 x nmpk. buat2 xphm. aku je yg xnk terima tu semua. bodoh kau ni pit. Dia dah ckup baik nk tnjuk semua tu kt kau, tp ko yg xnk terima. 

hmph.

xpelah. it is never too late. aku pegang kt bnde tu. so bg aku, belum terlmbt lagi. 

sekarang, aku terima semuanya. ape yg Dia tnjuk, ape yg ade kt dpn aku, dan ape yg aku boleh nmpk. 

TERIMA KASIH. 

semoga apa yg aku buat ni betul. semoga ape yg aku buat ni bkn mndtgkn keburukan lg kt aku. dan semoga cukuplah hukuman Kau kt aku. 

alhamdulillah. 

aku bersyukur kepadamu Ya Allah. 

it ends now

3 is the number. seems like its just a short time. but many things had happened. it was a part of my life. it was everything to me. but now, 

it ends. 

so long, farewell, goodbye. 

ape tu title dia? 


 hmm...?


 ape ek?


 haa.da tau dah!

KOSONG

sausages!

asik kau je kn. sahur kau. buka kau. sarapan kau. mkn tengah hari kau. haihh. nasib baik kau sedap! 

hahahahaha

kenapa?bagaimana?sampai bila?

tuhan saja yang tahu.

couldn't you at least?

tak boleh kah sekurang2nya dikau berlembut dengan ku ketika ku dimarahkan?
tak boleh kah sekurang2nya dikau berlebihkurang dengan perbuatan2ku yg tidak kau senangkan?
tak boleh kah sekurang2nya dikau melayanku dengan sedikit lagi kebaikan?
tak boleh kah sekurang2nya dikau menyayangiku dengan sedikit penambahan?
tak boleh kah sekurang2nya dikau mengambil kira perbuatan2ku untukmu setelah apa yang kulakukan?
atau sekurang2nya, tak boleh kah sekurang2nya dikau cuba untuk menjadi lebih adil dalam kehidupan?

terus terang, manusia sentiasa mengharapkan balasan.dalam apa jua keadaan sekali pun balasan itu.dengan sebanyak mana keikhlasan yang ditaruhkan.harapan untuk balasan sentiasa akan ada.tak kisahlah balasan itu dlm apa jua bentuk sekalipun.kerana tuhan maha pemurah.dan Dia akan membalas dengan pelbagai cara.bersabarlah.
dan sesungguhnya aku, hanyalah manusia, biasa.

what i'm gonna miss about my baby.

i) her touch
-when she holds my hand when we are walking. when she touches my face while we're sitting. and when she touches my hair when we're doing nothing.
ii) her smell 
-the smell of her hand when we kiss each other hands to say goodbye. the smell of her cheeks. the smell of her hair. the smell of her forehead. and definitely the smell of her ____. :p
iii) her kiss
-when she kisses me on my hand, my cheeks, my forehead and my _____ when we say goodbye. when she kisses me anywhere. sorry but cant tell the details. haha
iv) her breath
-her breath when she is sitting close to me. especially when we're watching a movie. and when she intentionally breathes in my ear for whatever purpose.
v) her looks
-when she looks at me when i'm doing something. when i call her. when i did something wrong (her angry looks). when i'm going off in my car and she'll wait until i go. and of course her looks when we're doing something together.
vi) her everything
-this point concludes all. it means anything that is related to her. what i really2 gonna miss of her is her herself. my baby wifey. siti farazeeqa rasid. cant imagine this coming times. days without u with me, scolding me if i did anything wrong, asking me to do what i have to do, eating together, sitting together, walking together, studying together, online-ing together, and most of all, breathing together. *sigh
we're gonna make it through okay baby?together.i cant make it alone. i need u to be by my side. u dont have to worry about me. coz i'll always be by your's. :)

<3

super sweet!

aaawwwwwww.....
thankyou sayanggg..that was super sweet..seriously..i super duper like!i igt nk buat smlm td. tp u dah buat dulu. haha. loser i ni.
haihh. i tau kte x biase bejauhan. tp kte kne blajar k by. slowly. as long as kite igt kt masing2, sayang kt masing2, inshaAllah kite ok. i'm really2 going to miss you sayang. hope u're gonna be there everytime i need you. kesian tgk u td. sedih tgk u sedih. kalau bleh xmo la nangis sgt k by. tp tu tndenye bagus. at least i know that u're gonna miss me too when i'm not with u. :')
dont u ever forget me okay baby. coz i definitely wont.

the story behind my fishies!

if u can notice at this blog, scroll down, u can see my fishies. there is seven of them rite?

two whites, two blacks, two reds, and one yellow. so, what does that mean?

the two whites are faris and zaty, the two blacks are mia and don, and the two reds are supposedly to be gepet and illy. but.... its okay bro, the important thing is the red one is you and the other is i dunno who. be strong bro. these three couple means a lot to me. i love them. and i love seeing them with each other. therefore, i'm trusting them with the yellow fish, my goldie goldfish, the love of my life, my wife. i love those three couple and i know they can look after my baby. its because i'm leaving, it's my final semester here. when i'm gone, take good care of my baby for me okay guys? 

i owe you guys big time. love all of you. :)

p/s = the yellow fish is you siti farazeeeqa rasid. :)

my belief :)

in my life, i have three main principles.

the first one is, KARMA. many would know what karma is. for those who dont, its a situation where what goes around, comes around. it means what u're giving, u would only get back. that is why i try my best to give only the best to all. especially my loved ones. hoping that the same would be done to me. but i'm still not perfect. sometimes i still do bad things. so, i'll get the punishment.

secondly, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. for this, i believe in Allah's almighty power. when anything that happens to us, it must be because of something. there must be something to it. either good or bad. sometimes, bad things happen because we are being punished.but sometimes, it is only because you are being tested. it is to see whether you are strong enough or not.and how you faces it. EVERYTHING that happens has a reason, that is why i believe in FATE, instead of COINCIDENCE. therefore, when something happens to you, find the reason why. that is what living is for, to search. because thats what i would do. and it makes me think. and thinking is good for you.

lastly, i believe in YIN and YANG. in my understanding, yin yang means that in everything, there is always both good, and bad. to me, it applies to everything. example, things, persons, action, etc. yin is the dark, bad, negativity. yang is the light, good, positivity. when a person is looked from the outside as a bad person, there is always good in them. and when a person looks good from the outside, they will also have a bad side in them. there is a reason to that. and it is the balance of nature. the yin and yang needs each other. to be balanced. so, everyone has good and bad in them.

for more than 20 years i've lived in this world, this is the three principles of my life. as i get more mature in growing up, i learnt these. at school, home, anywhere. based on my experience, what i have been facing. i guess i have enough evidence to prove all these. 

and of course, in living my life, i will always hold on to these principles in my future. :)

oh oh oh! i almost forgot. if u noticed, all three is so much related with fairness. soooooo, try to be fair in your life okay? ;)

kenapa?

u asked why?
such a stupid question sayang. its because i love you of course. haihh. i need you. thats it. no other reason.
leaving is not a solution.
another thing, i'm holding on to your words. thats another reason.
ty for loving me.

dont ____ too much

people say :
dont eat too much, or you'll get fat
dont study too much, or you'll get stressed
dont sleep too much, or you'll waste ur lifetime
dont play too much, or you'll get distracted from important things
dont kid around too much, or people will not take you seriously
dont be serious too much, or people will be afraid of you
dont be soft too much, or people will not be afraid of you
dont hate too much, or you'll be hated
dont love too much, or you'll find it hard too lose her@him
easier said, dont do things too much, i mean excessively.coz it'll only bring things that you dont need, want.


for me,
i say :
dont hope too much, or it'll hurt you.

:(

dakaplah
nothing i can do about it
this is just a lover's sigh
jealousy, normal
not a big deal
but it did hurt
a lot
:(
*sigh

alhamdulillah

so, x sia2 aku mengharap.harapan tu lah segalanya.x pnh jd kesalahan kalau kita mengharap.selagi ade harapan, selagi kita bleh go on.

to me, we both are to be blamed.each of us played our part, and we there was just a little part that we had wrong.thats normal.ppl call it ups and downs. 

from that, we learn.if we didnt made that mistake, we wont learn right?the best teacher in life is of course experience. 

and nowww, we're back on track.i'm feeling a bit different this time.it's like the feeling is better, happier.hurm.

and above all, thankyou sayang.thankyou so much.i love you.

haaaaaaaa....tu dia selipar kita kan by...heee..thankyou tauuu... muah!

thankyou so3 much!

u ckp u xtau nk beli apa utk kite pnye 3rd?haihh.
mcm2 u dah bg tauuu takkk.thanks for the shirt.it was cute.sebaik ngam2 je size.hehehe.next, thanks for the kentang tornado ke pejadah tu.hee.i suka bnde tu even susah nk mkn.next, thnks for the movie.movie pon bessst.next, thnks for the dinner.lamaa x mkn dble cheeseburger.next, thnaks for gadek n sentalkan daki.hehehe.sian u.next, thanks for the flippers!awww.kaler samee..commeeellll....!!!nnt pkai sama k..lagi kalau nk sebut satu2 bnyk sgt u..mcm2 u bg..
i plak?hnye mampu bg bunga n coklat je.hm.loser.haihh.sian u kn.hope u x kesah. :l

is there still?

it seems like it,hurm :')
high hopes afiq, high hopes.

hope

harapan
slah satunye bnde yg mmbantu kite meneruskan hidup.tanpa harapn, xtau la ape jd kt kite.aku still bepegang kt bnde tu.harapan.
kau ckp aku boleh jd lagi teruk, aku rase tu dah limit aku dah.xkn lagi teruk punye.sbb aku ni berfikir lagi.aku x bdoh mcm tu skali.aku syg kau.x pnh rase mcm tu.mase tu aku still tekejot dgn keputusan kau tu.mana x aku wat yg bkn2.so skg aku dah blajar silap aku yg aku x pnh buat.
so, dgn tu, harapan timbul.harapan utk kau maafkan aku bg aku peluang kedua.tu sekurang2mya.
mcm mane skali pon, aku akan sntiase mengharap.sbb apa, sbb aku akan sntiase sayangkan kau.

happy 3rd monthlysary baby.

hmm.three.one of my favourite num.xsangke.mcm ni kita celebrate kte pnye 3rd month.hadiah i bg u pon u x amik.sedihnye.

fara, i tau i slh td.i tau i bodoh, bangang, semua lah.tp please forgive me.i bleh trima alasan u.tp please, kalau boleh wat la ape yg i mntk kt u tu fara.kalau x, boleh gila i gaknye.tolong sgt.i need u.i need u so much.i need u to be there when i need u.thats all.i know it may be difficult, but try.please try.i menyesal buat ape yg i buat td.sumpah.n i ni bkn jenis yg senang2 je nk menyesal.tp kali ni i btol2 regret it.tp menyesal pon x guna.bnde dah jadi.

i wish that it souldnt end, i wish that u wouldnt go, n i wish that u'll stll be with me.amin.

i will still love and love you.