U know what. I just cant get over the fact that it has come to this. This situation. And every night before i sleep, i keep on telling myself, "let it go, apit. LET IT GO." But the fact is i cant just forget you guys. I miss you guys so much. But why it became like this?
Maybe you guys just cant accept me the way i am. Yeah im human. Im not perfect. But you guys aren't perfect top. One of the most important lesson life has taught me is that we should accept things as they are. Especially people. You cant expect ppl to change just because you dont like how they are. Thats what i did. accept just how ppl are. Haih. I dont even know why im talking about this. Benda dah lepas pun. Tp aku xtau kenapa baru2 ni aku asik teringat kt korg je. Argh!!
Xtau cane nak buang bnde ni dr dlm kepala. I know its impossible to go back where we were. You guys were apart of my life. I dont know what happened but now, it seems like nothing happened. Its like we never knew each other. Its like we're strangers. Xtau dah nk ckp apa. Dah berbulan2 x post tiba2 post psl ni.
Aku syg kwn2 aku. Lagi2 kwn2 yg rpt ngan aku. We were like brothers. Tp mungkin ini ketentuan tuhan. Ikatan silaturahim kita tak berkekalan. Tp yg penting bukan aku yg putuskan. Aku dah berusaha utk kekalkan ikatan tu. Tp bertepuk sebelah tgn xkan berbunyi.
Apa2 pun aku x pernah lupa utk doakan korg. At least tu usaha aku utk menghargai apa yg kita pernah ada. Perancangan Allah adalah terbaik. Mungkin ini pengajaran utk aku. Pengajaran yang semua benda dtg dan pergi. Termasuk kawan.
Life. Its all about learning. Everything that happens, is a lesson.
P/s: but alhamdulillah, there are still those who accept me for who i am, for what i am. Aku bersyukur. Thank you Allah for showing me whats best for me. Thank you my dear friends, my true friends. :')