it's time :)

sayanggg...surprissseeee!!hehehe

sorry i didn't told you earlier..i curi2 letak dlm beg youuu... :P

i rasa da smpai masa utk bg you bnde tu..

sebab i happy sgt ngan youu..macam2 i rasa ngan you..i BAHAGIA..

even if you ckp u x jaga hati i, tapi i rasa yg u jaga, sedikit sebanyak..

i nmpk effort you..

u're different now..and i like it..it makes me love you more and more..

do take care of it, do nurture it, do love it..

just like how you do it to me..

i know its just a stupid plain rock, but it means everything to me..

and i want the person that means everything to me to have it..

and that person is YOU, Siti Farazeeqa :)

u know i love you kan sayang.hurmm :')

big one this time

haihh...my worst nightmare may come true..tp x sure lagi..tp kemungkinan besar iye..xtau nk ckp ape..i tau i jgk patot disalahkan dlm bnde ni..x beringat kan i..bodoh..da ade otak xnk pk pit..hmm..maki2 pon x guna..bnde da jadi..so, i harap kite bleh mnghdp mslh ni sama2..i bertanggungjawab..i xkan 'lari'..u jgn, risau okay sayangg..whatever happens, i'll always be by your side..i akan sntiase ade dgn u..i xkn kemane2..okay syg?hurm :')

u pnye steady, pnye cool, watkan i relax skit..i tau u xnk wat bnde tu, tp tpakse syg..i hope u phm..

i really really love you syg.seriously.dr ape yg i nmpk, bnde ni akan jadikan kte lagi syg kt each other..hopefully i betul..coz i cant be without u baby..hmm...

always pray that it would go away a.s.a.p..amin..

sedikit sebanyak cerita sepanjang syawal (bhgn 1)

hmmm..raya continues after da pressure gle mase 1st day..it was okay..ke sane ke sini jgk lah mase raya ke2..raya ke3 balik kmpung..mati2 ingatkn raya keempat tu nk ke melaka.rupenye xjadi.geram betul aku..x reti nk bgtau awal2..xpela..sebaik syggg trun jb awal..dpt la lps rndu skit..jmpe syg and then baru tau betapa rndunye kitaorang kt masing2..dpt jmpe kjp je tp esok nya dpt la g karok ngan sepupu2 sygg..hee..segan je..tp best..thankyou korang..pastu esoknya syg balik melaka..
braya2 smpai la hari jumaat..hari yg dinanti2kan sbb syg nk trun jb balik..sgt excited sbb syg nk stay umah mase open houseee...sorry x bgtau awal2 nk balik ahad..
openhouse bejalan lancar...rmai jgk la org dtg..org2 yg 'bertuah'..hahahaha..thnks for coming guys..sabtu g beraya lg..kali ni dgn syggg...besssttttt...hehehe...mlm tu ade la isu skit..sorry syg.i hope u phm..thankyou so much for doing what u did..i was fcking happy when u turned around that time.. :')
ahad pon tiba..masa utk kembali ke melaka..konvoi ngan mmbe2 skit..sebaik kete ok..x wat hal..syg awak 'knight'..hehehe..smpai melaka g beraya jap kt umah mama syg..hee..selekeh je beraya cmtu pkai nye..xpe la kn..pastu g tgk wyggggg!!!!!thanks syg for keeping ur promise.last2 u tgk jgk dgn i..3D lg owh..syookkkkk..hehehe..biarlah kalau i jakun ponn...haha...
finally, smpai ke campus..ade perbincangan skit.bout kesalahan i..sorry syg..fucking sorry..u dont have to worry anymore..coz it wont happen again..u're confession made me stronger and made me aware...everytime ur tears fall, i feel guilty.tp mlm tu, airmata u tu jd smgt utk i jd org yg lebih baik..utk betulkan diri i lg..sbb i masih bnyk kekurangan..i da makin besemangat nk bercinta dgn cara yg betul..thnks to u :')
i love you so much sayang. u know that kan.so u dont have to worry okay. :)

1 Syawal 1431 H

Akhirnya, syawal pon tiba setelah sebulan bersama ramadhan. raya tahun ni aku xtau la apasal. rasa lain sgt. perassan, emosi lebih. cam bdoh. skit2 da bleh jd sebak. ngah taip ni pon sebak. haihh. da xleh nk menaip pulak dah ni. come on la apit!lembik sgt la kau! bodoh!
sambung crite. tahun ni mkn pagi raya x dpt mkn same ngan ali. tiba2 ade breakdown pulak. kesian dia x dpt merasa ketupat pagi2 raya ngan kitorang. xpelah. tanggungjawab. nnt aku pon ngadap jgk. tgu mase je.
siang td g umah anjang ngan maklong.dpt la merasa mskn dorang. burasak terbaikk. nk sgt bg syg rasa. tp nk wat cane.
ali balik keje mlm baru dpt amik gmbr satu family. tahun ni best skit sbb ade camera baru. thanks daddy! hijau pucuk pisang tema kami sekeluarga. pas amik gmbr mcm biase la, salam2 mintak maaf. kali ni aku betul2 rasa lain. rasa mcm aku ni dah bnyk sgt nyusahkan ibu ngan ayah. smpai bila? mintk maaf ngan dorang td pon nyaris2 nangis. kalau lame skit kompem da banjir dah. sebaik lincah2 je. pastu dpt duit raya.haha. x sangke. ali, ibu ana bagi. thanks korang.
for my sayang, i xtau nape i jd camtu ptg td. i rasa ape yg u buat tu sweet sgt. lg satu sbb x jangke langsung. mayb bg u bnde tu mcm xde pape tp bg i, it was really meaningful. thankyou so much for giving me the chance to feel that. i love you.
lepas aku da pikir lame2 masak2, aku rasa aku jadi mcm ni tahun ni sbb otak kau da makin matang. pikiran aku. perasaan aku. aku da mula menghargai bende sume. even kecik mcm mane pon. hargai bnde selagi dia ade dpn mate kite. Allah maha kuasa.bila2 je Dia boleh amik bnde tu dr kita. dah 20 tahun aku hidup kt dunia ni baru aku dpt belajar menghargai dgn lebih baik. lmbb sgt kau ni pit.
untuk ibu, ayah, ana, ika, ali, apit akan berusaha bersungguh2. utk jd org yg berguna. apit pon kalau boleh xnk nyusah kan korang lagi. tp apit x mampu nk buat sorang2. apit perlukan korang semua. thanks sbb ade dgn apit.
untuk syg, sorry atas segala kesilapan b. b ni bodoh, bangang, sengal. so please ajar b. please bgtau apa yg b patut tau. jgn biarkn b jd mcm ni je. b pnh ckp, b nk membimbing dan dibimbing.b nk syg yg jd org yg membimbing b tu. b xnk org lain. b rindu syg sgt2. lama sgt da x jmpe ni. haihh. hope sume plan kita berjalan lancar. amin.
note to self : jgn jd bodoh lagi.belajar.hargai.bersyukur.

finally, selamat menyambut adilifitri. maaf zahir & batin.

parents : unfair

parents, they are apart of my life, ur life, everyone's life, mostly.so my life isnt fair.at least from my point of view.but wh does the parents that is in my life have to be unfair too?it is seen from what they choose.or who.haha.come on lah.u guys should know best.u guys are old, older, old enough.dont judge ppl.thats just unfair, at all.love them as who they are.accept them as what they are.dont be too picky.i'm saying this to those who are already in the family and those who are entering a family.
i'm hoping that i wont be like that.i dont want my childrens or anyone to feel that.it wolud be sad for them.
hopefully, amin.

good for you

its good to see that u're happy
u should've told me earlier
but at least now i know :)

US

fara, dont say that please..
dont give up on me now..
i'll do whatever it takes to work it out, to work our relationship out..
even if we're far apart..i'll try my best syg..
for US....
as long as we love each other, we can do anything..we only need some effort..
and please, i beg of you, trust me..believe what i say..
i'm doing it for you, me and us..

:l

ana sampai jugak akhirnya kt melaka..
dapat buka sama2 ngan syg, ana, eqa, epeng kt pntai eye on msia..
tu pon mcd je..hahaha
then ayie dtg, g lepak hang tuah..
lame x jmpe dorang..lepak lame la jugak..
tp esok nye dah kena balikk :(
x best sbb syg x dpt ikot skaliii...mama x bg..
xpelahh..
pas anta syg balik trs gerak balik jb..
b4 naik highway da ckp da kat ana "ana, kalau pancit tyr ni aku xleh tkr tau"..
hahaha, amik kau..x lame pas naik highway btol2 pancit..
call plus.sebaik pastu dpt tkr..
balik2 ayh mara2 sbb lmbt, haihh...tension je..nk pnjm kete pon xleh..sabar jela pitt...

da kt jb masuk ni 2 hari.. :(
g buka ngan dak2 skola..lepak lepak lepak..
lama glee x jmpe dorang..

tapiiiii.....

sayang mara :(
soorrrryyyyyyy sgt3 sbb x txt u syg..
i igt u..sentiase..bkn x igt...jgnlah mara i... :(((
i f**king miss u baby..
jgnlah canii..
fuck btol cuti lama2..bangang..ni baru 2 hari, kalau 2 mggu?bpk r.mst rndu gile2 babi siot..
haihhhhhhh :(((
i hope to see you really2 soon syg..

p/s: i love you, only you :(

happy 1 month annyversary!

sayanggggg.....!!!
happy 1 month annyversary syggg....
hehehe..sorryy lmbt sikit wish kt u..kecoh la kure bley buat kantoi plak..
i ternanti2 sgt nk wish kt u..da resah gile dah ade org ajak lepak plakk..hehehe
tp i dpt jgk wish first.. :P
sorry sgt present x seberapa sygg, tu je yg i mampu..
harap sgt2 u suka surprise i..hehehe..suka sgt tgk muka u mase u amik kn sweater i.. :)))

bagi i, ni baru permulaan.permulaan utk relationship kita.relationship kita yg i sentiase harapkan boleh smpai bila2.amin.

p/s : i syg u tauuu..smpn ros tu eyh syg..