a retreat to malacca :)

setelah bnyk menghadapi tekanan, dan setelah berfikir pjg mencari jln penyelesaian nya(iaitu 3 minit) , aku decide nk pegi MELAKA!!! bandaraya bersejarah. bnyk sejarah kt situ, termasuk lah sejarah diri aku sndri. haha.

so sebelum dtg, aku buat la mcm2 call. mase tu dah semak sgt kpale, kalau boleh mlm rabu tu jgk aku nk gerak. tp xde tmpt tido. so gerak tgahri khamis. smpai2 petang tu jumpa syifak jap. hahaha dia keje. klakar je dia keje. apedaa. pastu bosan, aku g tgk movie sorg2. dah biasa dah. hee. keluar2 movie, tiba2 ade org dtg. nk g karoke. mmg aku ckp nk g karoke ngan dia tp x sangka plak dia nk g mlm yu jgk. hahaha. thanks belanja aku karoke. sian kau penat2 balik keje. pastu lepak mkn jap, then nazir and faez dtg amik aku. dorg baru smpai dr penang. pun penat jgk. sian korg. mlm tu xde wtpe sgt.

esoknye, bgn pg g sarapan kt sunga petaii! bpk rindu g mkn kt situ kn. hahaha. mcm org gila mkn sorg2. xpelah. sanggup. rindu punya psl. petang tu lepak je kt umah faez. plan mlm nk kuar, tp x smpt. mmbe2 keje, x dpt nk lepak. hampa gak r time tu. tp nk wat cane kn. sebaik ade nazir nk lyn aku. mlm tu tdo umah nazir.

sabtu. bgn2 dah pkul brape dah. bgn pastu g jumpa adik nazir. babi punye nazir x pnh ckp dia ada adik comel! bhahaha. kebetulan diorang nk buat reunion skit kt pantai. kitorg pun dijemput. tp sebelum join dorg tu aku n anzir g tgk wyg dulu. cerita yg sama aku tgk mase aku baru smpai melaka. pirates. kali ni 3d plak. hahaha. teruk gila. tp sumpah besssttttt cite dia.. berbaloi lah..! lps tu baru gerak ke pantai kt adik nazie n d geng. kitorg kne thn polis. AADK ade buat inspection. semuaaa org kene thn. aku n nazir kne pgl dgn sorg akak ni, dia tgk muka kitorg mcm boleh tembus! tp kitorg x kene urine test pun. dia tgk muka baik gaknye. hahaha. pastu lepak lah dgn kwn2 adik nazir. rupanya sebaya je dgn aku. kitorg bbq, lpk main kad smpai  kul 4 pg. pastu tdo dlm khemah. x smpai 15 minit tido hujan, angin kuat gila. hahaha. pdn muka. ydo x nyenyak. bgn kul 7 lebih sbb nk mnd pntai. sumpah penat. tp bessttt!

esoknya(iaitu harini), kitorg tpakse gerak awal dr diorang. sbb aku nk balik shah alam. tp bgn pg tu sempat la jgk mandi laut, main bola ski, bermesra2 dgn adik nazir. hahahaha! lps gerak dr pntai, tros g beli tiket balik ape sume, n skrg, aku kt umah bem(mmbe aku) tgh update blog ttg cerita retreat aku ke melaka.

overall, retreat aku tu sgt seronok. tujuan aku utk melupakan shah alam utk seketika sgt berhasil. hahaha. langsung x fikir. but u know what they say. what happens in vegas, stays in vegas. but in this case, melaka lah. hahaha. balik sini pun bkn dgn hati yg tenang. adelah terluka skit. tp kite perlu teruskan jgk kn. optimism. pentimg tu dlm hidup. hehehe.

ha amik kau, bnyk gila aku taip. tu dia ceritanyaaa yg nk dikongsi. hehehe. thanks for all that read it. really appreciate u guys. :)

ni ade skit gmbr2 org yg aku jumpa di melaka dam aktiviti yg kitorg buat. :)

sempat lg amik gmbr b4 movie start! :p

fara faez nazir

ni dorg celebrate bday(belated) adik nazir. hahaha. pdn muka natra.

malam : main kad

siang : main kad lagi

3 beradik. muka sepesen je semua.

nazir n i :)

luahan

sebelum aku start cerita psl aku punya "holiday", aku nk keluarkan dulu ape yg aku rasa skg ni.
ok firstly, aku x puas hati dgn jwpn kau ttg soalan aku bout our break up. kau ckp kau still syg aku, but kau biarkan je aku?hahahaha.kalau betul syg, u wont let me go just like that.
aku cite dgn basa, about semuaaa. aku ckp kt dia, aku rindu kt kau sgt2, aku nk kau, aku rasa x puas jmpe kau, smpai aku rasa sedihh. basa marah aku, dia ckp sape suruh kau trun melakaa. kalau x trun, x jadi mcm ni. tp aku ckp aku nk jd happy, mcm mana aku happy dulu. even sementara pun xpe lah. hmm.

maybe i expected too much from u, maybe i hoped too much from you. aku siap dh bwk baju, pakai selipar, bwk perfume. tp sia2. bazir je. see? aku terhegeh2 kn? haihh.
ade saying, 'dont hope too much, dont trust too much, dont expect too much, dont love too much, because that too much can hurt u so much'. i guess it was right.

so kt sini aku nk luahkan je bnde ni. sbb bila aku dah luahkan kt sini, aku dah x fikir2 lg dah. sbb aku kalau fikir2 bnde, sumpah pressure gilaaa! so, mintak2 lah aku x fikir lg lah bnde ni. amin.

dah, tu je aku nk ckp. thanks for reading.

p/s : ego tu buang jauh2. x de kebaikan pun ego tinggi2. sbb ego tu lah jd smpai mcm ni skg ni. 

single

being single for quite a while has changed me. it changed the way i think about people. it changed the way how i react to something. and most importantly, it changed the way how i look at people. especially people that are also single. because while looking at people, i'm also searching. searching for someone that could fill in the blank. haha.

but now i know. it's not an easy thing to do. yes people might say there are many girls out there. but to find the right one, its nearly impossible.

my past lover. she was kinda perfect when i first knew her. but it happened too quick. and just as i thought, she was not meant for me. i have to admit i loved her so much at that time. it broke me. even seeing her now happily with her new lover. but that is the past now. nothing i can do about her.

i'm not saying i'm giving up on searching the right one. but its a tough journey. so i'll have to search slowly and thoroughly. i dont want the same thing to happen again. i dont want to be hurt like that again. but this search is tiring me. the more i search, the more types of people i'll find. sometimes weird, sometimes freakish, sometimes a lil bit over. i dont think that i'm being fussy. its just that everyone(including me), has the right to choose, to have a particular taste on their future lover, to have specific likings.

i'm not putting mine too high. i'm not looking only from the outside. this time, i want to find the perfect one. i want to get to know the person well. but for now, theres no candidates. yet.

so now, all i have is my friends. they're the place where i tell my stories. good or bad. happy or not. everything.

but as a normal human being,  i still need someone that is more than a friend. so being single, isn't that great actually for me, for the time being.

semak

kau semak.

 xyah nak keluarkan ayat2 sedih kau tu.

 kau yg xnak kwn dgn aku kn.

 kau pun dah seronok dgn dia kn.

 dh la.

 semak semak semak.

examexamexam!

lama x update lah..busy skit..study je memanjang..bhahhaha..nnt lah bila dah free nnt kite story2 k,,mcm2 nk cite..sbb mcm2 dah jadi..hahahaha...btw, i have a new account skg..saje je buka buku baru :)

k lah..later! :D