Nak nangis kuat2 boleh?

Pinjam bahu sape2 please. I really2 need a shoulder to cry on. Haiiihhhh. 'Tidak berjaya'. Tu je yg tertulis kn situ. Senang2 je kn dorg tu. Jahat betul lah. Hmm.
Sedih sgt2. Xtau kenapa. Yelah. Aku ni sensitif skit bab2 bnde mcm ni. Mane x nye. Dah mengharap sgt2 kot bnde tu. SANGAT SANGAT okayy!
Tp semua bnde jd ade sebab musabab nye kn? Mungkin tuhan xnak bg aku rasa bnde ni. Dia nk suh aku susah dulu. Lagpun mungkin aku akan spend duit tu x betul sgt. Tu sbb kot. X pun bnde lain ke? Utk future aku? Kan kan kan? Haaaaa.. Menjadi org positif skg ni. Mencuba sedaya upaya. Memaksa senyuman dpn kwn2 aku skg ni. Sgt xde mood sebenar benarnye. Tp xpelah. Paksa jelah diri ni. Kalau kita ikutkan sgt frust ni pun bkn dpt ape pun ek. Sia sia je.
Soooooo, be strong apit! U're tougher than this! Get over it!
Ibu, ayah, ana, ika ngan ali. Apit mntk maaf la sbb x dpt nk senangkan korg buat mase ni. Buat mase ni, apit akan susahkan korg lg. Sorry sgt2. I've let all of you down. Tp xpe. Mungkin masa akan dtg apit akan senangkan korg. I'll get through this. Korg support apit tau! Dah kerja nnt apit akan balas balik budi n jasa korg kt apit. I promise! :'D

Sekian. Luahan utk kali ni. Thankyou for reading.

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Dedicate!

Hahahahahahahahahaa. Nk dedicate lagu 'Cheated - Mike Posner' kt kau. Dulu lagu Mike Posner jgk kn. Yg skg lain skit. Hahahahahaha. For fun je. Don't take it too seriously! Enjoy! :D
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Ikat perut!

Nak ikat perut pakai ape r sng? Hahahaha. Nmpk gayenye lps ni aku dah kene ikat perut la. Dah 2 mggu pt masuk, n now tgl 500 je. Nmpk la jgk ade dpt brg2, dpt blanje2 org, kuar2, byr utang skit2 n plg pntg bg mak bapak. Okay la tu kn? Lps ni xde la tu semua. Limit2 la semua. Dah xde karoke ke wyg ke ape dah pasni.

Nak kerja sbnrnye. Tp takot. Takot x pndai bahagi masa. Yelah. Assignment dah ada. Penat2 nk buat assignment pejadahnye kn. Hmmm. Tgklah nanti mcm mana. haiihhh. Next week da kene byr umah sewa. Ni baru betul2 sengkek tahap gaban ni. Xpelah. Mcm aku ckp selalu kt mmbe2 aku, duit boleh dicari, rezeki ade kt mana2 je. Sentiasa berfikiran positif! Dah mls nk tension2 semak2 kepala. Nak relaaaxxxxx jeee.. Hahahaha. ;)

Hadkan perbelanjaa ye apit. Kawal nafsu berbelanja tu. Even skg ni sbnrnye ade bnde nk beli lagi, tp nk buat cane. Lenkali jelah. :)
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Re: Fwd:

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Apology

Elton john said it seems to be the hardest word. I guess so.
But even eminem said it to his mama. Y can't I?
And btw, sorry one republic. I have to disagree with you. Its never too late to apologise. Its better late than never.

Here, me, ahmad nor afiq would like to apologise for some things.
1stly, I would like to say sorry to anyone whom I've mad mistakes to. Maybe by talking, action, a joke, or anything that made you uncomfortable, or hurt your feelings. I'm sorry.
Next, I would like to say I'm sorry if I've ever given false hope to you. Hope that I should have never gave. Maybe my intentions were misunderstood. Maybe my ways or actions shouldn't have been the way it were. Therefore the fault was mine. I'm sorry.
Next, for you, I'm sorry I put too much hope in you. I suffocated you. I've put so much hate in you. All because of what I've done. I expected too much on you. I'm sorry.
Next, I'm sorry I had to do it. I know you relied on me. I know you would've wanted me to stay. But I can't. Not in the way you wanted. I'm sorry.
Last and definitely not the least, I'm sorry to all of you at home if I ever let you guys down, if I ever did what u didn't want me to do, if I ever disobeyed you. I'm sorry.

All of these was never my intention. I would never do it on purpose. Please forgive me. And if I missed something, I'm sorry. After all, I'm still a child, still young, and full of mistakes.

My highest hopes, if only I could be a better person than before, a better person than yesterday, a better person than I am now.

Dear God, give me the strength to be what I am supposed to be, a better man. Put me on the right track. Give me the will to change myself. Amin.

That's all for tonight. Goodnight guys. Thankyou for reading.

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Updates!

Now, nk update psl diri sndri pulak. Hehe. Skg dah start belajar. Klas semua dah kene pegi. Kalau x jd bodoh aku nnt. Mslh pulak buku ni. Xtau la. Rase mcm nk beli buku mahal2 tu, konon2 berkat la. Tp beratus2 pulak hbs nnt. Hmm. Xtau lah. Tp buku penting. Dah start belajar, kene start buat note. Kalau x tertinggal nnt. Aku dah berazam nk maintain pointer. Kene la effort lebih skit kn? Hmmmm...

Psl rumah pulak. Hidup kt rumah ni sgt leceh. Even kt sebelah fac pun, still jauh gak nk pegi. Baru 2 hari moto dah rm5 dah minyak. Mampos mcm ni. Moto dah lah pinjam. Terima kasih kpd 'si dia' sbb bg pnjm moto sementara tgu moto aku smpai dr jb. (*hugs)

Love/social life pulak. Mcm biase. Kwn2 ajak lepak, aku lepak. Ajak futsal, aku futsal. Tp skg ni ade skit mase dilebihkan utk dia. Yelah. Aku bnyk terhutang budi ngan dia. Buat masa ni, kita dua2 xleh kemana. Belum bersedia la maksudnye. So sementara ade peluang, aku nk spend time secukupnya ngan dia. Degree aku x lama lg nk hbs dah. Entah ape nk jd dah time tu kn. So skg dah x pk psl status ke ape ke, skg ni aku ikut je flow. Ke mana angin bwk aku, aku ikut :)

Utk awak yg kt jb tu plak. Sorry. Xde niat nk sakitkan, hancurkan hati awak. Kite bleh berkwn. Tp kene la dgn cara yg betul. Bkn sembunyi2 dr certain2 org. Hope awak phm. Doa sy utk awak, semoga awak berbahagia di samping si dia awak. Sy nmpk mase dpn awak dah terjamin dah. Alhamdulillah. :)

And last but not least, for my bff. Sori haritu x dpt jmpe. Serious weyh pnt gila. Nnt aku balik lagi kita lepak lah k. Jgn marah2 tau. Nnt cpt tua. Tua dari usia. Hee. My btw! Tc tau! :D

Ha kau. Sekali update ttg diri sendiri melambak2 keluar ha. Hahaha. Dah lah. Nak mandi siap2. Nak g buka jap lg. Dgn . . . . . Hehehe. Take care guys! Thanks for reading! Assalam! :D
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Disconnect

Sorry. Ni jalan terbaik supaya aku x kacau2 kau lg, x semak2 kn kepala kau lg, x buat kau marah2 berangin lagi. Haha. Aku tau kau pun nk bnde yg sama. N kau pun suka mcm ni. Aku fhm. Okay. Smpai disini saja.
Sekian ;)
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